SuperHappyGirl

blogging

2011-05-19T11:55:00.000-07:00

sometimes i get lazy to share what i feel. because i'm skeptical about whether you will understand or be interested in what i have to say. afterall, everyone is talking. who wants to listen to me?

so i seldom blog. in fact, nowadays, i seldom read blogs even.

sigh, i guess, maybe it's an age thing. as i grow older, the more i am sick and tired of people. really want to be left alone with my thoughts sometimes.

oh and there's nothing depressing or emo about this post. it's a zen post.

旅行的意義

2011-04-08T07:06:00.000-07:00

太多了。
可是最大的意義，是再次睜大眼睛看世界。
停留在同一個地方久了，眼睛不需要睜開都會從公司／學校回家。眼睛看不見，心也漸漸睡着了。
所以旅行，對我來說，可能就是為了喚醒睡着的部分吧！

btw，首爾很精彩！

蹦蹦跳跳的时间

2011-02-23T13:35:00.000-08:00

一天又过去了
今天成就了什么
真的没什么
明天很快的也将跳过到后天
后天一跳，就到2012
然后再跳，我变成白发苍苍的老人了
今生成就了什么？

时间别再跳了！拜托！

At war with my habits

2011-01-20T10:52:00.000-08:00

Today i declare war against my habits!!

I-WILL-NOT-BE-A-SLAVE-TO-MY-HABITS!! 我誓言不再让坏习惯捆绑我！

First enemy to kill: morning coffee! I've always suffered from gastric problems. But the 1st thing that comes to my mind every morning, the second I wake up, is COFFEE! Without it I'd be a zombie. So every morning, I have to spend time and effort looking for coffee! Ooooohh... (shaking finger) NO MORE! I shall be free from this obligation. Muahahaha!!! Now I shall do anything I want to do when I wake up! Muahahhaha!

I AM FREE!

Ya right.

(PS: Thanks for listening to my crazy talk. )

就是没办法早睡

2011-01-18T13:31:00.000-08:00

其实，别说早睡，正常一点的时间睡都难啊。现在是5：18。我没有睡意。怎么办？

反正躺着没事，也太久没有update了，就和你分享一些小时候的照片！

在我阿嬷家的客厅。新年，总是会把台阶当舞台，站在那里唱歌。不记得是被动还是主动的了。

以前的发型有点小男孩，害我常被误会成＂小弟＂。

我的双胞胎弟妹真的无敌的可爱！

太可爱了！！自high！

好，我要再去try睡觉！bye！

we are individuals

2010-12-14T03:28:00.000-08:00

上个星期，在海南岛的南山吃早餐的时候，突然有个发现。

我和迪雅吃着美味的海南面。我觉得味道有点像我们的牛肉面，而迪雅觉得像担担面。我怎么吃还是吃不到担担面的味道，就觉得自己是对的，明明就比较像牛肉面。为什么迪雅就是吃不出来呢？心里有点不舒服。

吃着吃着，我不小心吃到我一直小心避免的花生。顿时，我明白了为什么迪雅会认为像担担面。

就算，两个人吃着同一盘面。理应会有同样的体验。但是，每个人的味蕾、感受就是不一样。人类给味道取名子－酸甜苦咸，方便我们沟通。但，我们不可能完全了解另一个人的感受。咸是多咸，甜又是多甜？

同样的，开心是多开心，痛苦又是多痛苦呢？很多时候朋友哭诉心事，我们会很自然地用自己那把尺去衡量她的痛苦究竟多痛苦。我听过很多“我更惨啊！”，“这，有什么好伤心的”。但，我不是她，我又如何知道她的伤有多深呢？何况，冰冻三尺非一日之寒，我不知道她之前累积的痛楚，又如何能够了解呢？所以聆听很重要。An open mind 更重要。

我渴望理解这世界，我就更需要刻意地、选择性地使用我心中的那把尺。

反过来思考，既然彼此了解那么难，那我们如果不好好沟通，我们不能怪别人不理解我们。甚至不能期望别人理解。朋友之间很多时候就是败给expectation这个字。

突然想到陈奕迅的《我们都寂寞》。

迎面一个老尼姑走过

把路灯看破

有你在家里苦等的我

难道比她幸福得多

现在不想下班的我

没爱好难过有爱算甚么

我恨我我不知道想要甚么

我不知道拥有甚么

可能我们都寂寞

如果没有彼此了解，就算身边有个人，还是会寂寞。

所以说，知己难求。能找到知己，就要好好把握。uhhum!! 廖素仪、廖慧明、徐薇薇、陈迪雅、卓诗妮，能认识你们真好。因为你们，我绝对不寂寞。

阴险的痛楚

2010-11-20T01:44:00.001-08:00

有一种痛是很阴险的，像小偷。

像上衣内侧的label做得不好，一直隐隐约约地扎到身体。这种痛不够彻底，就会一直由着它在身边恶整。明明难受但又不够痛，它没有让你想马上处理掉。但是，有一天，你还是会受不了。有一天，你要正视问题，把label剪掉。要不干脆不再穿那件上衣。

有一种问题存在着，但没有很明显。可是只要不剪掉，还是会隐隐约约地折磨着。

虽然说没有解决不了的问题，但如果label剪不掉，那就别穿了。

痛哭

2010-11-07T01:32:00.000-07:00

我不太会掉眼泪。不知道是哪里来的怪逻辑，觉得掉眼泪很丢脸。

所以我很习惯逞强，把眼泪往里吞。

星期三，拍《逞强》MV，崇庆（我们可爱认真的MV导演）要我痛哭。

我实在没有信心。但是，制作团队很认真，所以我不能辜负他们。

结果，我痛哭了。

我是真的咆哮了。

但是，就是没有眼泪。

眼泪，都跑去哪里了？

writing with my eyes shut

2010-10-25T02:46:00.000-07:00

i'm writing with my eyes shut.

what am i writing?

maybe when i open my eyes, i would not understand myself.

but that's ok. i enjoy this blind-writing.

i'm singing with my ears plugged.

what am i singing? how do i sound?

maybe when i finally open up my ears, i would realise that i am 3 semitones away from the right pitch. but that's ok, i'm enjoy singing now.

i'm living with my back on the future.

what am i doing? what's ahead of me?

maybe when tomorrow finally comes, i would....

nah, i don't think so. i'm enjoying life NOW!

我想。

2010-10-15T06:30:00.000-07:00

我想。。。。

我要说的太多了。

所以，什么都写不出来。

我想。。。

说多了也影响不了什么。

所以，我不说了。

我想，

我想太多了。

crazy world!!!

2010-09-22T10:23:00.000-07:00

很喜欢在pub / cafe 唱歌的感觉。

很喜欢去台湾的“河岸留言”，很轻松，很近距离地，看表演。
自从，那次去河岸留言，就很向往能够，那样近距离地唱歌给一群爱音乐的朋友听。

所以，我最近很开心。
新加坡开了一家《疯狂世界》！而且，他们一开业，就邀请插班生去表演！ROCKS !

请马上到他们的网站去购票。地方真的不大，票真的会卖完的！马上立刻！！！不能拖了！！

www.crazyworldcafe.com !

他们的鸡翅膀真的很好吃！！！OK 他们的食物都很好吃！！！

如果没有空去看表演，也要去吃他们的东西！！！他们已经正式开张了！！！

24 Temple Street S058569
(3 mins fr. Chinatown MRT Exit A)

Opening Hours:
Tues-Thurs : 1200 to 2300
Fri-Sat : 1200 to 0100
Sun : 1200 to 2300
Mon : Rest!

OH！还有，我们的网站，有一个POST-IT page！很好玩！！快去玩！插班生 the freshman YAY!

小心翼翼地。。。

2010-09-16T11:05:00.000-07:00

喜欢一个人，小心翼翼地喜欢，

小心翼翼地幸福。

很梦幻，很迷人。

高空彈跳的刺激我不想聽
沒興趣冒險的遊戲
當你邀請我為何輕易答應
你的語氣讓我安心

摩天輪上的夜景浪漫絢麗
半空中我忘了恐懼
當你親吻我分散了注意力
怕高的我看見星星

你讓天空失去距離
我讓我離開了遲疑
往上攀登愛情告別回憶
我在愛著你

閉上眼睛等你抱緊
輕撫我起伏的心
你是唯一讓我勇敢的原因

你讓天空如此靠近
我讓我再認識自己
往上攀登愛情告別回憶
我在愛著你

深深呼吸讓你抱緊
傾聽我起伏的心
天堂出現你的愛是樓梯

drowsy

2010-09-14T10:18:00.000-07:00

oh i love drowsy meds.

maybe cos i'm usually quite a control freak.

this sensation.... is nice. i can't be in control of my body. i can only let the meds take over, and do their thing.

woah~ ~ ~

im starting to not feel my leg.

the muscles on my neck is feeling... weird.

my eyelids are heavy.

my hands are slowing... down....

like!

going to sleep! ta!

the freshman

2010-09-13T22:17:00.001-07:00

did you know? 插班生 the freshman's website is UP!!!

and we have started blogging there! please visit http://thefreshman.com.sg/

the website is still undergoing minor construction. so please bear with us a little. :)

btw, have you gotten a copy of 《人生实验课》????

我渴望孤獨

2010-08-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

你知道嗎？
我相信大家都知道。

其實，我們都是孤獨的。
我不知道怎麼跟你說，才能讓這個事實比較好消化。因為，孤獨，是一件痛苦的事？

我，這一刻，却渴望有和自己獨處的時間。可能，我嘴邊常掛著的自由，就是這麼一回事。
就是我的時間不被任何人左右，不被別人安排。想要一個人，就能一個人。

孤獨，聽來很可怕。很多事情，一個人是辦不到的。但是，沒有留一點時間給自己，沒有和自己溝通的時間，我越來越不懂自己。

你看，就好像現在，你看著我寫的東西，你看懂了嗎？
我不懂。因為我沒有時間思考，我不懂自己的想法。

這是一篇沒有經過思考寫出來的爛東西。

我需要一個人思考。

我渴望孤獨。

people and music

2010-08-16T13:02:00.000-07:00

things have been sooo crazy.

i'm sooo busy and i have soooo much to think about lately...

i think my head is going to explode.

but oh my, i'm so grateful.

it's just so heartwarming getting to know good people.

good, kind, helpful, passionate people.

we all share some kind of love for this world. for creativity. for people.

i love that connection.

and we have just received our master CD! OMG! so exciting!!

you know what that means~

it means that.... MUSIC PRODUCTION IS OFFICIALLY COMPLETED!

phew ~ ~ ~

i think... you are going to hear it on the radio wave soooooon.

please go dig your ear.

get ready for it.

go!

oh! PS: 9th sept is a very special date.

Yup! the floodgate is going to open!!! * bishhhh * :P

sotong

2010-07-21T03:29:00.000-07:00

I have no determination!!!!
I NEED TO GO TO GYM!!!!! bleeeaaaahhhhh........

Ok, that's a passing thought.

That's the thing with me. I'm ALMOST like the guy in memento. Ok, I don't actually have a condition. but I can sooooo relate to the movie.

For example, a thought comes into my mind : Call Friend A to ask about something important like PR plan. I would pick up my iPhone. And I see that I have an sms, so I would read the sms 1st. Friend B says "Hey do you wanna watch inception?" (say i dunno what is inception yet) I would go online and check out inception. maybe check movie timing. I would say ok to Friend B, go out watch a movie etc etc maybe even have supper and NEVER remember to make that call.

so similarly, i would forget what i have to do! like i need to GYM, need to practise guitar, run errand for mum etc. yah i know. i can make a list right? yah, but i would always forget where is the list!!! uuurrrggghhhhh!!! so i would make another list! and forget again!

brilliant huh?

=_=

i'm a true blue blur sotong. (without prediction ability.yeah.)

oh no, i feel like maybe i do have the condition. darn.

pursuit

2010-07-03T13:35:00.000-07:00

are we fools in a pursuit of nothingness?

i'm in a circle, with half of its path submerged in murky water.

i feel good, i feel goooood, i feel goood, i feel okaaay..... i feel like shit, i feel damn lost, i feel damn blind.... i feel a glimpse of light, i feel better, i feel confident......

maybe one day, finally one day, only 1/10 of the circle is in the murky water. and i am secured.

maybe that's when i remember more clearly, everyday, what i am chasing.

i guess, what i'm really pursuing, is a pure connection, with you.

alone

2010-06-16T02:08:00.000-07:00

i'm not very good at being alone.

i can't eat alone in a public place. i would feel super depressed! i'll start to think that nobody loves me. haha... it's silly i know.

i always dream about traveling alone and watching movie alone. but i secretly know that i can't do that. i can't! i just neeeeed to share my experiences with someone.

because of bible camp, i'm here in penang. i am surrounded by church friends all the time. and i crave for alone time.

so here i am....

i wanna live here.... even if i have to live alone.

today i finally have some private time with my thoughts. and i think i got some stuff figured out. at some point of my me-time, i really felt like crying some tears of joy.

因为一个人坐在阳台，吹着风，想着些什么，读着好书，真的超舒服！！！

today i realized the importance of a balcony! yeah!

把握。

2010-06-09T23:54:00.000-07:00

就快要失去了。。。

消失以前。。。

用力地把你锁进回忆。。。

如果，回忆是没有颜色的。。。

那我怎么记住你被岁月洗刷的颜色！

总是知道即将失去，才想要去把握。

*****

早上八店。2B座号。

心情很兴奋。急着想把一切拍下来。用AIPTEK的录像机，用照相机。
偏偏2B不是靠窗的坐位！！
把身体扭曲成怪状，拍下一些照片。可是很快就累了。

放弃。

决定坐下来，感受一些坐火车的感觉。不能用眼睛，就用耳朵，用心。

安静下来，才注意到火车在唱的曲调和节奏。但是，我听不懂，它在唱什么。就是，很纯熟、很懂、看透人生的感觉。

它有很多经历，轰隆轰隆，它想跟我们分享。但，又好像很无所谓。可能是因为觉得我们听不懂，或是，想让我们自己体会，不想把人生说的太白。人生说的太清楚，就不好玩了。

忽然想起张悬。不知道为什么。耳边开始唱着《关于我爱你》。意外的发现，这首歌的感觉和火车的节奏吻合！一老一少，合唱着《关于人生》。早就觉得张悬是了解的！她怎么那么了解人生啊～？（PS：谁说年轻人不懂人生？？？哼～！）

”我拥有的都是侥幸，我失去的都是人生“

尤其唱到这句歌词，她，和它，是一致的，是同部的。

blessingsssss

2010-05-31T11:25:00.000-07:00

i really dunno how to tell you this.

but it's so great to be loved by God. really.

the past weekend has been overwhelmingly AWESOME! whenever i get close to God, blessings flow freely. actually i'm sure when i don't draw Him close, He still pours out His blessings freely, but i'm blind to it.

anyway, i think He has bigger plans for us. and he's leading us to it.

How personal is too personal?

2010-05-28T00:20:00.000-07:00

作词家们，真的很不简单。

歌词要感动人，应该要亲身经历过、痛过、伤过、甜蜜过、后悔过，才能写出刻骨铭心的作品吧？

这次，我们的专辑里的词，尽量都是自己操笔（献丑了）。

写着写着，一直犹豫不定，我究竟愿意把自己多私人的东西写出来呢？

有时，把非常私人的事物夸张化、戏剧化，会不会让当事人误会我是什么想法？

记得，有一次报章访问，记者问我最难忘的恋情。当时，我刚分手不久。但，我没有说刚过的那段。我回答说是我JC毕业时，犹如《心动》电影的那段恋情。报道出街那天，我就接到简讯说，我伤害了他。哎～

同样的，我写的歌词，某个程度上，它是我的故事。

请不要读的太仔细！因为，它不是完全属实啦！

不然，我真的很难写嘞！

sunrise

2010-05-25T22:51:00.000-07:00

i like taking pictures.
but the following pictures will not really reflect the fact that i like to take pictures.
because err... they were all taken from the same spot. hahaha!

it was too early!!!
and my body was still asleep!!!

still, my soul was awaken by the beauty that was created by the Lord, for each and everyone of us.

look at the colors. i could stay at the same spot and the scenery was changing for me. like a movie.

diya was active even at that hour.

为什么海岸边的背影，总让我觉得孤寂？

the sun is one of the greatest gift that the lord has given us.

me.

2010-05-25T11:02:00.000-07:00

i really like a part of the movie "before sunrise" , where the guy talked about how he's sick of himself.

there's always the option of getting away from a friend, a partner, a colleague, a sibling.
just don't meet up with them. go away and be alone.
but you can't get away from yourself.

it's so true!

sometimes, i get sick of myself.

but i'm stuck with me. there's no getaway from me.

anyway, "before sunrise" is a very nice movie! it has joined my favourite movie list.

let's start anew.

2010-05-25T03:19:00.001-07:00

new layout, attempts to re-new my desire to blog.

2010-05-24T23:28:00.001-07:00

Maybe what I really need is a new layout. then I would feel like blogging again... haha.

活著其實真的很好！

2010-05-07T00:17:00.000-07:00

昨晚，我梦见我妈妈被枪杀！！！！在梦里的我，过了一段日子，还是没有办法从悲伤里走出来。“她”一直在哭，一直歇斯底里地哭。我妈每天都是傍晚 6／7点钟放工回家。梦里的我，每天到了6／7点钟，等不到妈妈回家，想到妈妈不会回来，就会倒地痛哭。总之，是心如刀割的痛！

醒来时，眼泪还是不停的流。心还是一样的痛。我非常害怕失去我父母！每次，想到死亡，我的心就很沈重，很無力地撲通撲通。
醒着的我，继续哭了半个小时。我觉得很蠢，但，眼泪不自觉的拼命掉。去刷牙时，才发现眼睛都哭肿了。

可能你读起来会觉得很无聊！或，觉得死亡这样的题材，干嘛拿来写呢？？很避忌！

BUT！

我们应该正视死亡，才会真正的活着吧？

这个梦，提醒了我，要好好地活着！要好好地爱与珍惜身边每一个人！我心中涌起了一股力量。我想那是热爱生命的力量！我马上就传简讯告诉我家人我爱他们！也第一次告诉一位在我生命中非常非常重要的素仪小姐我爱她！我们做了十多年的好朋友，因為含蓄，哪裡會說我愛你！哈哈哈！今天說出來了，很爽！馬上，打開電腦，log-in部落格，想通知大家。。。

活著其實真的很好！！！！

popping by~

2010-04-22T14:26:00.000-07:00

Decided to pop by. Because I suddenly thought maybe my dad still comes and visit every day to see if I blogged. HI DAD!!! :P

My brain is gonna split. I have too many thoughts and too many things to worry about. My parents don't really understand what I'm doing. Well, everyone don't understand what exactly am I doing. Just like I won't understand how my dad could construct a building. I won't understand the kind of work behind it. But yah when you see a tall building constructed from nothing, you'd probably be able to imagine that it's A LOT of work. But one small little CD with 10 songs... that can't be a lot of work huh?

I have a lot of work to do.

Good bye. Oh and I updated the other blog... click!

Test

2010-03-12T23:27:00.000-08:00

Trying to write on my iPhone. Test test.

2010-03-05T22:03:00.000-08:00

Aahh.. Just realise I can include photo here too!! Slow~~ ok here's a pic of my fav bakery - Provence!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Iroiro

2010-01-31T02:54:00.001-08:00

This few weeks have been very fulfilling. Our album is definitely moving forward and moving closer to our ideals. It's very egg-citing. To get live updates on what's happening, you may check out the twitter widget by the sidebar. we are totally addicted to twitter. hahaha. so i'll be slacking off on blogging a lil ok? muacks!

Oh! a lil update!

I'll be singing at JB City Square on 6th Feb! JB-ians, PLEASE COME!!!!

Date: 6th Feb Saturday
Time: 3pm
Place: City Square JB

Also, Diya and I will be singing for Channel 8 CNY countdown show. SEE YOU!!!!

石凳子

2010-01-22T00:27:00.001-08:00

Finally wrote something simple that I'm quite proud of! Pls read it at my omy blog. It's abt a stone bench. http://blog.omy.sg/carrieyeo

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2010-01-14T08:46:00.000-08:00

This is BRILLIANT!!!! It's a MUST READ!!!!

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/Giddens/9227178

Freedom of speech

2010-01-13T21:49:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I get too conscious abt what I write on my blog. There's just no freedom of speech and I'm a coward. Like for eg. After david tao's concert, I want to come home and write abt how boring and uninspiring it was. Can I? Like pf, saying "我不想再听一次". What wrong with her saying that line? It's her mouth! We are all entitled to our own opinion? Really?

Anyway, it's just very restricting. And I'm having thoughts abt closing this blog...

Ladidar..

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Spontaneity

2010-01-11T02:55:00.000-08:00

I'm going on a spontaneous trip. Roadtrip! Don't know where yet! Woo.. That's the exciting part!! Ok, let you know when I'm back!

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Can u keep a secret?

2009-12-13T06:31:00.000-08:00

Can you keep a secret?
click here!

birthday part 2

2009-12-07T07:42:00.000-08:00

oh yes. 怎么能够少了你们呢？十一年来，陪着我长大的人。哈哈！In fact, they were the earliest to celeb with me...

We had a great dinner at Everything with Fries and then dessert. then PRESENT!!! I got a bag from them. yeah! I have a habit of bringing a lot of things out so this bag is gonna be great! I can fit my laptop and dslr in too.

好白痴的表情！

Just realised we have same hair style again!

I started my birthday celeb with my oldest friends.. and then ended my birthday celebs with my newest friends... haha! the kinki +2 gang. We had Bak Kut Teh at Founders and then Singapore's best french toast at 新天地 (coined by PF and WX).

and yes, the french toast is REALLY good. man, if i had blogged earlier, before the shop closes at 12mn, I would have drove there for one now.

Thanks gals!!! And thanks for the brownies.

OH! And WeiWei, thanks for the T-shirts from UT!!!! Can you see that I'm wearing the inuyasha one? hehehe! Love them! Esp the Rough trade record one. Oh and Dee was wearing my Tezuka Osamu T. Nice!

I'm blessed. :)

Birthday part 1

2009-12-07T01:08:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged. A lot of things had happened. Good and bad. Well, life is all the good and bad. Let us not be affected by the bad. I'll tell you about the GOOD, which is my birthday! YEAH!!!! It started with....

the CRAB!!!! OMG! Diya is amazing! She organised a surprise birthday party at her house for me on a Sunday before my birthday. We had BBQ seafood. I'm not a big fan of BBQ cos the food always come out just edible. But Diya's BBQ is GREAT!!!! Plus it's my birthday and I can totally NOT help and it's ok. so I LOVE IT!!!! She bbq-ed stingray, prawns, crayfish, chicken wings, squid, and many others. but the highlight is definitely the CRAB!!! my favourite food at all times.

That's me and my 1st birthday cake. Thanks Junli. I don't think I've ever tried Apple strudel and turns out it's yummy.

That's the party! Pardon the mess but it was GREAT! Hmm.. my camera ran out of battery so you can't see the whole party.

Here's my pressie from ChongQing and Adrian, it's the necklace! LOVE IT!
THANKS PF, WX and JL for another lovely necklace! muacks!

1st Dec was a lazy Tuesday so I happily slept until 4.30 PM. hahahahha!!!! Then I went to visit the LamBs! That is what we did on Diya's birthday too.

Foot belongs to the 长不大的Dee. OOps, 老二 was missing from the picture. Here he is...

Thank you Esther for making Bruschetta for me!!!! It was uber yummy. It was perfect.

I was in a hurry to eat it (cos it was beckoning me) so err.. picture is not very well taken. Well here's a close up on the lovely cherry tomatoes.

I don't normally eat tomatoes, but these are really yummy.

Ian~~~ He's soooo cute even when he's grumpy! hahahaha..

The next big Korean star is him... in love~~

Since birth, I've spent every birthday with my family. It's really "song~" but I won't be here without them. Plus they are the people I love most in this world. muack muacks! Too bad Hau is in Australia but he called just nice when I was with the family. It was quite warm and fuzzy all over. aahh~

Diya made my sis and i pose the same way to show that we look alike. Do we? haha.

爸爸和妈妈。

My mum's new best friend. hahaha! Who was mine to begin with! 我妈跟我抢朋友！！ hahah!

The food at Ma Maison is so good as usual. Usually I would go and order the same dish (pictured below) - the beef stragonauv butter rice. But since there were so many of us, I finally got to try other dishes.

The traditional birthday cake time with a twist.

It always amazes me how well my sis knows my taste buds. She bought a Jackfruit cake for me! SUPER YUMMY!!

大合照！！Poor Dad, always have to hang out with a hugh bunch of girls. hahaha. Hau, come back soon~!

Thanks Ma Maison for the polaroid.

Oh I gotta go out!!! Running late. I still have more to share! Please hold on for part 2!

golfballs!

2009-11-09T10:27:00.001-08:00

I don't usually like to copy and paste stuff onto my blog. but this article made a difference to me. Some shit happened and i let shit filled my life...

*****

TO MY GOLFBALLS
By Anna Karenina

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
when 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
"I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life."

The golf balls are the important things - God, family, children, health, friends, and favorite passions – Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else - literally the small stuff.

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued,
"there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life."

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Spend time with your family.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

"Take care of the golf balls first - the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled.

"I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Share this with other "Golf Balls" in your life! :D

****

And so I learn not to let shit fill up my life. Prioritize! I know what I want in life and these shit are not gonna stop it. whee~

Updates lardeedar~

2009-11-04T10:07:00.000-08:00

Did you see the sky today???

It was like a disney or pixar animation's opening visual. It was like someone drew it in the sky. I'm sure someone is God. It was beautiful! I was driving so it was very hard for me to take any pictures. My assistant very quickly whipped out my father's dslr but trees or buildings keep getting in the way. owell.. here are some pictures....

一層又一層 !!!

太陽被厚厚的雲層半遮住，呈現美麗的天空。

很久沒有這麼多雲朵了！而且那麼厚！

Anyway, Diya and I have been going out there... Trying to go to different parts of Singapore. Err.. ok actually we went to ONE ulu corner of Singapore and we really like it there. We sorta go around looking for inspiration(?)... sorta. Anyway, took a lot of photos and lots of videos!

OH!!! Speaking of videos!!!! Why do we have the luxury of taking videos??? Yah, I'm sure I've blogged about our endorser - AIPTEK, but you haven't heard.... that... They gave me ONE!!!! HEHEHEHE! OOOHHH!!! Mine is sooooo 輕巧 !! It's my palm size!

Introducing.... AIPTEK AHD T7 Pro!!!

So I've been carrying it everywhere I go to 搜集靈感! well.. and to 搜集美麗的畫面.

The thing about holding a videocam is that, I found myself looking out for beautiful things. I also started the habit of looking at things at different angles. Sometimes, you just have to tilt your head up or down and you see a whole new world. But most of the time we go along with life in a routine. We don't realise the small little beauty around us. Maybe without this video cam, I would have missed out on today's beautiful sky.

With a video camera and a seeking heart, I hope to capture some 你陌生的畫面 and bring it to you nicely.... which means nicely edited. haha! which takes a lot of time and effort. So please be patient!!! 真的不容易因為我是龜毛的！更何況, I've been focusing on writing lyrics. Once I hand up my "homework", I will start making nice videos for ya!

So.. look out for it! and THANKS A ZILLION TO AIPTEK!

Oh finally.. my HK trip

2009-10-26T01:04:00.000-07:00

OH! I miss my blog!!!! Sorry blog for neglecting you. I've really been so busy that I haven't got the chance to 記載 all the events. Gosh.

Well.. 1stly, I went to HK.

Oh.. if I have to summarise my trip in a word, it would be... different. For one, it was my 1st time standing on a foreign stage. So I was really excited to check out the culture of TVB and how the operate and stuff, and experience a different audience.

So I realise the TVB's culture although similar to Mediacorp, their production crew is bubbly and pretty friendly. The whole cantonese atmosphere rocks for me! WOO! And I was embarrassing myself constantly with my lousy canto. haha! During fitting, I was trying to tell them that my 2 songs are 小女人 type of songs so I would like a more feminine look. But I think I said 笑女人. In canto they are similar!!!! Just a slight 音調 difference. They laughed so hard. -_-" I'm glad I could make them laugh. That did not stop me from trying out my canto! hahaha. I tried even harder and made them laugh even harder. ahaha... That was really fun.

On the day of competition, actually I felt like I was losing my voice. I was doing a playful imitation of 我是一隻小小鳥, and hurt my throat. Yah, I'm an idiot. Anyway, yah, so I was not in the best condition but I thought good la, then i'll sound sexy. I was losing my voice and I thought this is a good opportunity for me to just focus on my emotions rather than my technique. So this is a different performance from all my previous performances. I used to be careful with my techniques, but this time, I threw everything out of my window and just SING! Wah, twice I sing until I wanna cry lo. I think I choke back tears during the 2nd song (可以不愛了). I don't remember very clearly cos I was not even listening to myself but just trying to express myself. This is definitely a first. And this kind of performance either you get it or you don't. Some people would love it and would be touched. But some would think I sound horrible. Owell, but I absolutely threw my heart out and enjoyed the performance.

Oh, TVB won't let us take pictures in their compound. So I have NO PICTURES to share! Here's a scan of the article by Wanbao.

this is one when we were on TVB8's 娛樂最前線.

I only have pictures taken by them...

1st day, on the bus to TVB!!

The girls (not all but most..) Introducing...

(back L-R) Melissa, Angela, Janice, FeiXue, Vivian
(front L-R) Wendy, ME!, JieYu, Min

I really thought Melissa and Min are SUPER GOOD! Especially Melissa!! She was my predicted winner. Well, she got to top 2. Min was top 4. JieYu was the eventual winner.

I really felt a connection with these 3 girls.

Wendy (left most) is only 16-yr-old but she has got A LOT of potential! She's sooooo pretty and she can sing, but she has to train more la. hahaha.. But she has what it takes la. She's bubbly, sociable, yet talking to her, I feel she's mature and rooted. Oh! btw, she's taiwanese but representing Brisbane, Australia.

Melissa (2nd left), as i said, she's a super good singer, and she can improvise really creatively and she sings with a soul. Woo! And she's a really sweet girl. She's very chatty so we talked a lot. haha! Oh! She's a Malaysian studying in Melbourne so she's representing Australia.

Check out this video of her singing in Melbourne.

Janice (right most) is a super sweet girl. She is also a Malaysian studying in Adelaide, representing Australia. heh! Malaysians are talented la! hahaha.. She's got a really really nice 中低音 and can sing those Joanna Wang kinda song! Or she would sound super good singing bossa style "over the rainbow" that kind you know? Anyway, when she walked down the stage right stairs duing the show, singing 知道, WAH! GOOOOSE BUMPS!!!!

This is another WOW singer. He is Kah Fai, representing Malaysia (Ipoh). He has a vulnerability in his performance. There's a 莫名的抖音 which is crazily touching for me. I teared, listening to him during full dress and actual show.

It's really 天外有天！ I'm so inspired by all these people!

Oh! Something else that was different was that I really didn't shop much! hahah. After the competition, I just met up with a lot of friends who are in HK.

Yup! :D

After the HK trip, I have been meeting up with company and producers discussing about album. It's full time on album now. You won't see me performing in the next few weeks too cos we are gonna focus on our album. and I'm trying to write lyrics for our songs. So 閉關-ing now. All I can tell you is that... it's ALL SO EXCITING!!! Oh man... dream come true... aaaahhh~

Alright... gotta go back to writing... wish me luck!

HK trip

2009-10-04T12:58:00.000-07:00

我的天啊！I'm leaving for Hong Kong in 2 days! Yes, I'll be leaving for HK on 7th Oct morning. I can't believe it! Time flew past and suddenly I'm going to HK ALREADY?!?!?!

There are still so much I need to prepare!

At 1st I was told to prepare 2 songs, which I have selected 相信 and 可以不愛了. Then last week, I was informed that I have to prepare 3 more songs! AARRGHHH!! There will be more than 2 rounds.

1st round - 16 contestants each singing 2 mins of their own-selected songs. Eliminate 8 contestants.

2nd round - 8 contestants each sing 2 mins of their own-selected songs. It will be a PK format. So out of 2 person, 1 will be eliminated.

Revival round - one out of the 4 eliminated in 2nd round, will be revived.

3rd round - 5 contestants will sing 2 segments.

<2> for female contestants, we can choose between 中國話+眼淚 or 畫心+ 煩. I will choose the latter one.
for the female contestants, we can choose between 王菲's 執迷不悔 or容祖兒's 揮著翅膀的女孩. I'm singing the Faye Wong song.

From the 3rd round they will choose 2 finalists.

Then 4th round, 2 finalists will sing one of their own-selected songs one more time. And from there the winner will be chosen.

Very complicated right? I just hope that I get to at least sing those 2 songs that I chose. I'm really not a competition kind of singer. Please pray for me k?

It all sound very exciting right? And I bet you won't want to miss out on the action? Well, you can watch the live telecast on SCV Channel 53 - TVB8 at 7pm.

Ok, wish me luck!!! heh.. Off to pack.

Changes

2009-09-26T00:16:00.000-07:00

Singapore changes at lightning speed. You would see buildings sprouting out in a split second. Like that day when I was walking along Keong Saik Road, I suddenly realise that there's a building rising up.

That's the Duxton HDB flat. Looking good.

It's great that Singapore is advancing. But I sometimes think... there's just no space for reminiscing, for nostalgia.... Not even my dear NYGH. It moved to a new campus shortly after I graduated. So even when I wanna 回母校, the new campus is just a stranger to me. :(

Sometimes, I'm very grateful that Malaysia, on the other hand, has the "luxury" of space for nostalgia. Every time I go back to Malacca, I'm just glad that all my favourite food places are exactly as they were since I was young.

Last weekend, I suddenly remembered a kopitiam that I used to visit a lot when I was a kid. So I brought Diya and Jiaqi there for breakfast. And I was so glad to find it as it was. The drink seller is still the same guy with a towel wrapped around his neck... (din get a picture)

The 粿條仔 uncle looks exactly the same with the same quiet frown! (he doesn't even seem to have aged.)

The 瓦煲飯 uncle looks a little older with a little less hair, but flipping the claypots with a thick table cloth in the exact same enthusiasm and precision.

Ooohh.. and our favourite 咖哩面 auntie sporting the same hairdo (since we started eating there about 19 years ago). She's still screaming at her staff with the same loudness and angst. I'm so scared of her. I never dared to order from her. But that day, I had to order cos I was the only who has eaten there before ma! aahhh... kowaii~ (scared)

The funny thing is... I noticed something new.. the yellow papers on the pillar (refer to last pic of curry noodle auntie)... it says...

"Price subject to changes according to customer's attitude."

and the piece below says..

"If you are arrogant, grouchy, irritable or just a pain in the ass, there will be a RM10 charge for putting up with your shit."

HAHAHAHAHHA!!! And I thought the auntie was grouchy. hmm.. That pool of money should be pretty full. Woo! I wonder who put the notice up and why. I'm sure there's at least 3 juicy stories behind those 2 yellow papers.

Ok, back to my point... about the non-change. When I went back to the kopitiam, I was just so impressed that everything is the same! And I wonder, what makes these 3 stall owners stay at the same spot, doing the same things, for about 20 years. Wow!

Everyone has a place in this world. And their place is here at a kopitiam in Tmn Sri Tebrau. If they are not happy or not doing well, I'm sure they will move somewhere else or do something else. But no, they are here. And I thought that this is probably their destiny. Destiny does not have to be HUGE! Destiny could be selling claypot rice. 行行出狀元，就是這個意思吧。All 3 stalls are famous one hor... dun prey prey.

But of course there were changes for the better too. Like the tables and chairs are newer and nicer. The place looks cleaner. The claypot guy has more staffs and they were all in neat polo T uniform. He had a new nice logo with new menu.

lardidar~

aaahh... I love to enjoy these little things in life. It makes me happy! and think "Isn't life beautiful?" Well, at least for that moment.... haha.

bitchi-ess on Omy.

2009-09-25T02:00:00.000-07:00

Updated my blog on omy~
Check it out!

updates 21sept

2009-09-20T13:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm... Sorry about the tagboard! I don't know what's wrong leh! And I don't really know what to do about it. So... Let's be silent... for a while. haha!

As most of you would have read in the papers, yah, Diya and I are forming a duo! Well, the decision was a fun one, and we feel right about this. I think we are both 太好玩 to want to go down this path alone. heh. We haven't got a group name yet! At the moment, we are focusing on the mooosic! It has been really exciting and we are just listening to the demos. Let you in on a secret, by far we have collected about 6 songs le!!!! Ok, 4 more songs to go~ And by far the songs ROCK! Thanks to our dear producer - Mr Jim Lim. He has found us so many great demos and a magically nice music direction is forming.

This has been a magical journey. :)

Ok, I'm going to sleep~ Leave you with a cute pic!

This is Chimpie looking at sleeping Diya curiously~

omy blog + elianto

2009-09-10T13:14:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired.... Today was a very fulfilling day. Well, lately, it has just been pretty fulfilling cos we are working on our album!!!! Anyway, I blogged at OMY! Please check it out here! Thanks!

Oh share with you a GOOD NEWS!!! My mum and her friend opened a cosmetic/make up/skin care shop - ELIANTO at City Square JB! It's a Korean brand....

If you are at City Square, can drop by to say HELLO! hehe. And buy some masks while you are there! It's really affordable and it's VERY popular!

五月天、感動。

2009-08-29T14:30:00.000-07:00

五月天。是rocks的。

Sigh.... 數一數。。。應該有4次掉淚。數一數吧。。。

1）《倔強》

我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声地唱这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

2）《笑忘歌》

唱一首属于我们的歌让我们的伤都慢慢慢的愈合明天我又会是全新的青春是手牵手坐上了都不回头的火车总有一天我们都老了不会遗憾就OK了伤心的都忘记了只记得这首笑忘歌那一年天空很高风很清澈从头到脚趾都快乐我和你都约好了要再唱这首笑忘歌这一生只愿只要平凡快乐谁说这样不伟大呢

看著五月天，五個大男孩在台上手牽手。他們的友情真的讓我很感動。想起我那班老友。這麼多年了，卻感覺生疏了。是我想太多嗎？

3）《約翰藍儂》

能不能暂时把你的勇气给我在梦想快消失的时候让我的歌用力的穿过天空为我爱的人做一秒英雄能不能暂时把你的梦想给我在勇气快消失的时候总有一天要人们叫我披头最后没成功也作过最美的梦

有。勇氣有就快消失了。
有。夢想有點模糊了。
有。五月天有再一次的把他們的勇氣、夢想借給我。

最喜歡最後一句，最后没成功也作过最美的梦。好，不怕了！又要往前沖了！！！！

4）《我心中尚未崩坏的地方》

期待着彩虹所以开了窗窗外只有灼热闪光所谓的彩虹不过就是光只要心还透明就能折射希望每个孤单天亮我都一个人唱默默的让着旋律和我心交响就算会有一天没人与我合唱至少在我的心中还有个尚未崩坏的地方其实我们都一模一样无名却充满了莫名渴望一生等一次发光宁愿重伤也不愿悲伤让伤痕变成了我的徽章刺在我心脏永远不忘再唱再唱再唱再唱再唱

最後的“再唱”，阿信用高音，刺近我的心臟。

5）《垃圾车》

虽然你脾气坏对待朋友又差凸槌又更爱牵拖佳在你遇到我不爱计较的我算你坏人有好命有你我才未孤单有你的陪伴我才有靠山你若欢喜我是你的垃圾车每天听你唱歌

29日的演唱會，坐在我左邊的是，陳迪雅小姐。err.... 牽著她的手，讓我覺得歌裡面的“朋友”，就是我吧？？？因為，err....我脾氣壞！！！！哈哈哈！而陳迪雅就是那位“不愛計較的我”。哎，真是算我好命，怎會遇到一位可以和我共患難，共享樂的朋友。又可以互相欺負、可以一起無聊、一起做夢、一起長大、一起幼稚、一起笑、一起哭。真的是Thank God!

今天開始，她是垃圾车。我是垃圾桶。哈哈哈！

6）《溫柔（還你自由版）》＋《天天想你》

不知不觉不情不愿
又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑
因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由
你真的有说过
如果有就让你自由
自由
这是我的温柔

28日那場，阿信沒有做那個旁白的橋端，而是唱了一段《天天想你》。

当我伫立在窗前
你越走越远
我的每一次心跳
你是否听见

当我徘徊在深夜
你在我心田
你的每一句誓言
回荡在耳边

隐隐约约闪动的双眼
藏着你的羞怯
加深我的思念
两颗心的交界
你一定会看见
只要你愿意走向前

然後，link去最無奈的“我給你自由”，build up to 最激動、最痛心的“我給你全部全部全部自由”。哇！安排地、太妙、太棒了。

OH! 是6首。五月天，是rocks的。

(PS: I blogged on omy. link on the sidebar~)
(PPS: 我們都太投入了，忘了拍照，所以照片不是照內容貼的。:P）

Singing cannot be competed

2009-08-24T00:01:00.000-07:00

Aiyah, i really really really think 唱歌是不能比的!!!!!

I'm not sure if competing makes the music better leh. sigh... but then it's the competition that makes entertainment.

it's a conflicted world.

I read 李杰宇's blog. And I thought he was really really sweet. He was the one whom Diya lost to.

"這場跟迪雅PK
其實當她在唱的時候
我在後面其實有一點被他嚇到
因為迪雅非常的從容自在
好像把星光舞台當作是自己家一樣的輕鬆
就像小玲老師說的一樣迪雅的音樂性真的很強
還有她自己很優異的節奏感真的是一個很厲害的選手
這次能贏他自己真的覺得是幸運

下台之後有和迪雅小聊一下
他講的一句話我覺得很棒
迪雅說他覺得沒有所謂的誰輸誰贏
因為每個人的音樂都是獨特且唯一是不能拿來比較的
當下我真的覺得迪雅不僅是在唱歌上很厲害
連內在都很有深度
之後他給了我她PK的牌子
要我好好加油
我也一直把他放在我的包包裡

希望我也可以像迪雅一樣如此的輕鬆大度
面對接下來的積分賽:)"

I really thought it was very very hard to compare the two performances. So I was a little what-the-hell when diya lost to him. I thought they probably should be 平手.

Anyway, I was really glad that Diya still managed to show Taiwan what she's really good at! Well, not everyone 可以看得出 Diya's strength. But I was very very very 欣慰 that at least 李杰宇看出來了。It's not easy for one to see the strength of your competitor. Most of the time, people just look for the flaws in their competitor. 佩服！這個人的度量是大的！也證明他是熱愛音樂的。

可惜的是，反而是評審沒有和李杰宇一樣的看法啦。

所以，迪雅啊~ please don't be disheartened! You did well. REALLY!!! *slap into your mind* 更何況，機會還有的。不要緊盯著這一次的機會。我們还會有別的機會展現我們的實力的！！But next time, we will be even more prepared! And we will be more focused! And we will 更把握我們的機會！

一眼瞬間

2009-08-20T12:36:00.000-07:00

AAARRRRGHHHHH!!!!!! Totally ROCKS!!!!!! Check it out!

This is making me soooo excited!!! it's almost 4am and my legs are shaking of excitement! WAKAO! That's freaking good singing... when can i be like that.... uurrrghhh... *shaking*

hahhaha.

link to omy

2009-08-20T05:00:00.000-07:00

blogged at Omy. 該不該說出口？

《礼物》中现声

2009-08-18T09:57:00.000-07:00

Hi all, I forgot to mention, I'm REALLY REALLY quite excited about my voice appearing on Radio 1003's radio drama 《礼物》! It's a series of stories and I am acting in one of the stories. oohh~ Thomas Ong is my 对手 lo!!! But err... I actually recorded separately la. So I only met him for a handshake. urghh...

I already forgot which episodes i'll be appearing in but I think it's episode 4 onwards for a few eps. And the radio drama started on 17th so it means I'll be appearing on 20th Aug 吧！Ok, "hear" out for it~!!! 每天早上9点正通过电台1003播出，下午3时及晚上9时重播。

PS: I've also posted something on omy blog. Go and read~!

2009-08-17T00:55:00.000-07:00

终于可以和大家见面了！

Since the Kallang show, this is probably the 1st time I'll be on a show leh. Yeah~ Feel like it's been sooooo long. :)

Anyway, I'll be appearing in 我要唱下去 roadshow!

Venue : Jurong Point (Map)

Date : 22 Aug 2009

Time : 2:00PM - 3:00PM

Performers : Diya Tan, Carrie Yeo, Shawn Tok, Jarod Lee and Teresa Tseng.

See ya there!!!! and of course, if there's time, you can approach me to take picture lo~

omy.sg

2009-08-13T09:20:00.000-07:00

I started blogging on Omy.sg haha.

http://blog.omy.sg/carrieyeo/

Err, they asked me if I wanted to blog on omy. And I thought "err... why not?" I din really think about "oops, what's gonna happen to blogspot?" haha.

I guess I like that I can be 文绉绉 there. HAHA! So, in the future, for “大道理” I will likely post it there. And everything else here. But don't worry, I will continue to post here. When I blogged there, I will still "highlight" it here so that you can go read over there.

Confusing?

Aiyo, we'll see what happens bah~ 随心所欲嘛～

Go read it now!!! cos I have 2 new posts and one copied from here. haha.

Life is a Race...

2009-08-05T03:53:00.000-07:00

Sigh... gloomy weather, gloomy 心情。好不容易想来“清境”清静一下。你看，应该是这样的风景。。。

可是现在又起雾又下雨。一切都变得蒙胧。
sigh....

By now, most of you might have heard... Diya is out of the PK competition. But actually hor, she already did very well. She got through the 1st round. Then she sang a 2nd song. And she lost to her PK rival by only 1 point. And it's a little unfair leh. They "ding ding ding" the score for diya 1st. Then that guy... 李杰宇's score hor, it stopped at the same score then suddenly "ding" one more point from 小胖老师, who in my opinion, did not give very fair comments.

Erm... I really dun agree with what he says about diya. He commented that Diya's voice has no 辩识度!!! (HELLO???!?!?!!) Then at the backstage, he asked Diya "who do you think you sound like?", and said he can't think of anyone who sounds like Diya. And then he went on to advise Diya to look for a reference. I don't understand why la. Isn't it great that Diya sounds unique? Sigh.. Aiyah I dun understand what the judges are thinking la. And I think it's all about the programme also la. I believe that there were a lot of factors considered, that has nothing to do with singing.

Anyway, I secretly took a picture of Diya on the famous 星光 stage! hahaha... sshhh.. dun tell people.

To my dear friend, a lot of people will give you 马后炮 comments and feedbacks. There's no way to block them one. People just like to think they know better. But the fact is... they might not. Listen to what you think is useful and filter away those that are hurting and not helpful. Like 选错歌 that kind is totally useless. If you had done that song well, then no one would have told you that you 选错歌.

But please don't be affected by this small setback. In fact, most people think that it's a setback but I don't. I think that you have done a great job, even 小玲老师 (click here for her interview) said that “对我来说她还是有实力的。这是一个比赛，输了并不代表你不行。”

Life is a super long race.

Sometimes, we are leading the race.
Sometimes, we get tired and we lag behind a little.
Sometimes, we fall. But we have to pick ourselves up.
Sometimes, we have to take a break to run the next mile.

And no one can ever predict who's gonna finish the race 1st. In fact, there's no need to judge who's doing better than who. Because the race should be a competition with yourself and most importantly, I just wish to enjoy this race.

我们应该追求的是幸福，而不是名誉金钱。

It might sound very idealistic. I'm not saying I'm above money and fame. I just mean don't focus on money, fame, achievement, reputation, etc. Let's focus on happiness 吧.

输也要输得开心。穷也要穷得开心。

YEAH! I'm going to TW again!

2009-07-28T11:27:00.000-07:00

WAH! 我又要去台湾了！

Do you still remember I said that being the No4, I might get to go Taiwan for the PK competition? That is because Taiwan side TV program people decide that they might add on the number of contestants from Singapore. Well, the news is out and I'm not the one. booooooohooooo....

But it's ok. Never mind la. I'm fine. I very 释怀了。I know He has other plans for me. =D

Anyway, my dear friend really needs me. So does the other friend who is going with her. So does my sister who is going too!!!! Aiyoh, so many people going, how can I not go right? To be honest, I really struggled la. Because my mum was very stressed about the recession. I know that the economy is really bad. I am affected too ma. I said NO for the longest time. Until someone found some kind sponsor for me! whee~~~~

Then something good happened at home too. Cannot say what! haha.. So now I get to go!!!!

I'm going to be the best 助理 for Diya lo! whee~~~ But they haven't confirmed if I can follow to the rehearsal. :S They have already said no. But we are going to ask again. Aiyo, not like I am so hardup to step into the competition's studio or the TV station lo. I just want to be there for my friend okay~!

Plus... have you heard? I bought a VIDEO CAMERA for DIYA!!!!! woooohaaaa~~! Well, I'm a poor struggling artist indeed, but how can we miss out on the 1st 海外演出经验. I just have a feeling that this is the beginning of something great. And I think that the ability to capture all these memories in video is priceless. PLUS!! This video camera is awesome at a VERY affordable price! Really! Even for poor struggling singer, I can afford it. :D So happy to have found it! And I have always wanted a video camera!!! So although I buy for her, I get to play with it too!

This is our new toy~ I really hope I get to bring it to the Xingguang Show to shoot all the behind-the-scenes for you to see. Wish me luck!!!!

And of course, to my dear friend, all I wanna say is.... ENJOY!!!! No stress yo, just enjoy yourself. Like you always do. And we will all enjoy you enjoying your performance. woo!

Love yourself

2009-07-21T10:17:00.001-07:00

I was at Casual Poet's blog. And there was this question that she posted "Do you love yourself? If so why? If not, why?"

I thought about it...

I pondered...

..... my answer was "I have to love myself because i know that i can only depend on me to love me."

I'm saying in general. Life. Human Beings. For me, I know I have my family, who love me so. And I love them too. *muacks* But in general, you just have to love yourself! Lately, I'm losing some confidence in friendship. The concept of friendship. I love my friends la. But really, 人与人的相处 is hard. Honesty or distance? Well that's a whole other topic, which I can't go into right now, cos I just CAN'T figure it out! ok nvm... back to my point...

I guess this is how I define optimism.... When i love myself, I'm secured. When I'm secured, every thing is positive and life just seems a little easier.

My point is... people, love yourself! I don't mean 自私 and 自大. I'm talking about 自爱. Love yourself, cherish yourself. Love life. When you love yourself, you'll learn to love people around you. And the world might just become a better place.

And for me now, I love God. And I'm learning to love people like Jesus did. It's HARD!!! But i'm trying. (Oh this is probably the 1st time I talk about God on my blog huh? Yup, I'm a new creation~! Thank God!)

Music taste (1)

2009-07-19T14:08:00.000-07:00

That day, on Facebook, Fannie tagged me in one of her shuffle-your-ipod notes and told me that she wants to know my music taste.

"hmmm......"

So I "played the game". But then I realise, it doesn't work on me!!! My itunes now is full of demos and minus-ones. haha! And I don't have a lot of songs in my itunes, because I have most of my favourite songs in CDs. I drive so I like to listen to them in my car. Come to think about it, I don't listen to my ipod that much. haha!

Anyway, so then this lil game on facebook, inspired me to share the kinda music that i like. So I'm gonna start a series of music sharing.

Today, I'm gonna introduce to you... Love Psychedelico!!!!!

I guess everyone knows... I'm a Mayday fan. Yup, they are my absolute favourite. So I won't state the obvious. 再来, the next obvious one is Amei. Oh by the way, divert a bit, have you heard her latest album??

ARGH!! I love it!!! Please look out for 掉了，词曲written by 吳青峯.
Actually I really like her 嘶吼般的唱法，仿佛把技巧and caution 丢掉，放肆，真实地唱。NICE!

Ok, wait!!! I wanna talk about Love Psychedelico.

love psychedelico

The band was formed in 1997 by singer Kumi and guitarist Naoki Sato, while studying at Aoyama Gakuin University in Tokyo.

Something special about this band is that their lyrics is a mix of English and Japanese. In fact, about 50% each. Most J-pop songs which tries to mix English in their lyrics, usually don't make sense or well, weak sense. But Kumi grew up in the US so their English is VERY GOOD and you can actually understand her. And best still, you can't tell that you are listening to Japanese! haha! nice! I really like to 氛围 or mood that their music put me in. I just feel like throw my head in whatever direction that the music pushes when I listen to them.

Nice. Pls take a listen to them. If you like, buy their CD. I liked the 1st 2 albums better, "The Greatest Hits" and "Orchestra". Check it out yo~

Busy week

2009-07-11T13:18:00.000-07:00

这个星期我是忙到～～～

很多人很好奇，一位全职歌手，每天是做什么的huh？每次人家问到我，我都不知道该怎么回答。
那天突然有个灵感。让我来给大家解释一下。

Ok。一位歌手就像一个product。

一个产品需要 product development. Like a beauty product, say, moisturizer. You have to do constant research & development to develop a good moisturizing product right? In our case, we have to train ourselves in singing. We try out many kinds of songs, try to find the style that we are good at... Well, best at. Exercising and keeping fit are important things to do too. Although... I'm LAZY! For me, I would love to have my thoughts in my songs as well. So I have been pretty hardworking at trying to come out with lyrics.

We also do "Market Research". haha! We check out new CDs constantly, update on what is new and "trendy". Oh my current playlist includes 梁文音 (ok, not that new but I like) and 张惠妹.

"Product marketing" means keeping ourselves in public eye, or you can call it exposure. It could be interview with the papers, or, it could even be as simple as blogging. ;)

Oh, there are soooo much to do!

What you see is a small part of what we do. Ok, I gotta go... and get busy.

Diya at Xingguang5

2009-07-06T00:46:00.000-07:00

Aiyoh, Missy Goh is RIGHT!!!!! I haven't congratulate MISSY TAN DI YA for getting into Top 3!!!!!

What a terrible friend.

CONGRATS TAN DI YA!!!!! You won AGAIN!!!! ggrrr... ok la, I forgive you again. Because I know what you can do, more than you do. The week before when you were down and depressed, thinking that you can't sing. I never for a second stopped to think that you can't sing. Ok, let's just say that your singing is not the amei/ alin big voice, big lung sort. But 辨识度 super high. And there's a very nice touching tone to your voice. But I think your best quality is your stage presence. That is something that can't be trained!!!! And you have it la... that is sooooo 强!!! You are soooo bright on stage my friend. 那天，看着你在台上唱着找自己，我好感动。因为我看得出来你找到了。You are indeed the light of the world.

Anyway, thanks for being such a great friend. Thanks for throwing back all the 安慰的话 back at me the following week.

释放你的光彩吧！

越来越喜欢孙燕姿

2009-07-04T05:46:00.000-07:00

我真的越来越喜欢孙燕姿。

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孙燕姿复出当“孙老板” 称厌倦自己这个产品

发表时间:2009-06-30 09:05 来源:新闻晨报

时隔两年,短暂归隐的孙燕姿再次回到公众眼前,并且带来了“‘答案是……’演唱会”。孙燕姿说,之前,她对“孙燕姿”这个产品感到了厌倦,所以决定暂时退出,并且决定自己当老板。

归隐两年享受自由生活

给自己放大假,孙燕姿已不是第一次。2003年,当她还红得发紫的时候就曾退隐一年,2007年,她再次决定休息,这一歇就是两年,当这次再复出的时候,她选择了在从未有华人女歌手开过个唱的八万人体育场,举行她的第三次世界巡回演唱会。“之前开演唱会,虽然只有两万人,但是台下的气氛给我的感觉就好像是有五六万人一样,所以我一直想尝试一下,真正有这么多人是什么感觉。而且,我两年时间没有出来,很多人都在猜测我做什么去了,变成什么样了,他们在心里对我有很多的问号,而这台演唱会就是我给所有人的一个答案。”

那么,这两年的时间,孙燕姿到底做什么去了?

“我有点厌倦以前的‘ 孙燕姿’这个产品”,她用“产品”这个词形容曾经的自己。她告诉记者,这两年自己终于感受到“自由”的幸福,她攀岩、骑马、游泳、研究心理学,更重要的是,可以每天和家人一起吃晚饭,有更多的时间做一个好女儿、好姐姐、好朋友,“还有,怎么当好一个女朋友”。记者问她,对自己的个人问题有什么具体打算? 孙燕姿一笑:“现在还不是公布这些的时候。”

再复出要叫她“孙老板”

再次复出的称改变了一贯的形象,长长的头发盘在脑后,显出几分成熟女人的韵味。“大家都说我现在有女人味了,呵呵”,她笑着说,“长发对我来说是自由的象征,因为以前一直没有机会留,可能公司希望我延续一种形象和感觉,不想让歌迷对我陌生。”

没有以发新专辑的形式回归乐坛,是孙燕姿自己的选择,她也有这个权利选择,因为她现在就是自己的老板。“我这个老板怎么样?”她转头问边上的工作人员,“你这个老板挺好的”,对方笑着回答。“但是是老板就更不可以乱来。我很希望接着世界巡演的机会宣传造势,然后推出我的新唱片,但是现在我说不准,我不知道什么时候能交出这份答卷,可能我还没找到这张新专辑需要的感觉。”

没有新唱片,那还是把眼光投向8月8日八万人体育场即将举行的“‘答案是……’演唱会”,孙燕姿说,这是一场前卫、带有实验性的演唱会,“比较符合我理想的方式”。演出曲目是根据答案的顺序进行编排,当然也少不了经典的《天黑黑》、《风筝》、《神奇》等。演出服装全部由著名设计师张叔平设计,可是在台北演出的时候,因为换装出了点问题,衣服脱不下来,孙燕姿直接用剪刀剪开了一件波浪状的衣服。后来张叔平知道了这件事,眼睛都红了,“每一件衣服都是他亲手缝制的,都是艺术品,我想,可能他以后不会给我设计衣服了吧,呵呵”,孙燕姿说。

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她很自然！她很可爱！

Can't wait for her concert on 11th July!!!

漂亮的芭蕾舞小姐

2009-07-03T03:15:00.003-07:00

在Orchard Rd的一个小角落，她，一个人卖命的舞蹈着。
观看的，路过的，停下脚步的，不多。
拿掉掌声，拿掉观众，她还是享受着。
我看得感动，看得鼓舞。那份对舞蹈的热爱，坚持，让她在舞台上光芒四射。
就算是个小舞台。

谢谢你，漂亮的芭蕾舞小姐。

我不是一个只能唱《疼憨人》的歌手！

2009-06-30T22:09:00.000-07:00

我不是一个只能唱《疼憨人》的歌手！

事情过了3天。我已经OK了！但是每次想到在晚报的报道里，有一个评审说“杨佳盈不可能一直只唱《疼憨人》，但她偏偏在唱第二首歌时表现稍微逊色了点。" 我好介意啊！！！！

我不是不能唱《后知后觉》！！！我只是肚子太饿了！Ok, I know I'm stupid.. 那天我真的失策了。早上7点半起来，我只吃了半个crossanwich。然后下午12点的时候，我喝了一碗老黄瓜汤。That's all！所以，唱完《疼憨人》我就胃痛了！我马上拜托朋友帮我买一杯热牛奶。我以为这样就够了嘛！怎么知道上台唱这一首非常吃力的歌到一半时，就发现“惨了，不够力。”

SIGHHHHH~~~!!!算了算了！不想了！

哈哈哈。

post post Xingguang5

2009-06-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

I was reading up on Taiwan's 金曲奖. And I found this... in www.taipeitimes.com..

"After winning the coveted Best Band category, A-hsin (阿信), lead singer of the Taiwanese pop band Mayday (五月天), said that “being beaten out repeatedly is the best practice for winning.” "

AAARRRHHHH!!! HE WAS SPEAKING TO ME????? hahaha.. ASHIN WAS CONSOLING ME???

okok, fine. He's not. But this is a message to everyone!!!

Thank you all for your messages, 我是没有那么容易被击倒的！！！

I love to sing. As Yuneng pointed out, "要握住心中最初爱音乐，唱歌的本质". I will do just that. A little competition will not set me back! I have a greater plan ahead. I had a great day today and I looked back and thought, "yesterday was such a eventful day!"

Also, today Mr R said something really wise to me. He said "what's wrong with being No.2? the Underdog??" Oh man, it hit me and I woke up!!! I love to sing. And singing is never about competition!!! I mean, who dares to say Amei or Faye Wong is better??? It should not be a competition. It's just so fun to sing and connect with people! I'm sooo sooo blessed to be able to sing to people and be able to touch their hearts. And that's what's most important for me!!!! I will never forget that!!!

Although this time I lost an opportunity to sing to more people, but at least I got to touch some of your hearts yesterday at Kallang!

谢谢你们跟我一起投入在一首歌里面！在那一首歌里，我们是紧紧扣在一起，感受着一样的感受。

I'm super happy girl again. And I will always be!!!! =D

Post Xingguang5

2009-06-28T22:42:00.000-07:00

oh man.... i'm so disappointed.

yah, i'm not a fake person so i'm going to honestly tell you that i'm very disappointed that I am not in Top 3. Because I know I'm just a baby step away (can't tell you what this mean until Wanbao is out tonight.)

我总是差一点，为什么我总是差一点？？？

昨天宣布成绩的时候，我还没有那么伤心。我很OK的。But when I went to the Media reception, when I heard THAT news, my heart sank. Why? Why am I always one baby step away. Just like Superstar. It's like deja vu. I lose by a bit, and everyone comes to comfort me and 替我不值 and say that they were rooting for me, or they thought I was the best, etc. BUT what happened??? Last night, while we were at the reception, so many people came to tell me that they were disappointed with the result. Even some of the reporters, the TV producer, some 1003 people. They came to tell me that they were sure I am one of the 3 to go Taiwan. So what happened???

I question my singing ability. I question my star factor. I question everything!!

URGH!!!!!!!

What am I supposed to learn from all these drama??? That I'm not good enough??

真的很累。

But I'm very touched by all these people who love me, who comforted me. Sigh, I'm so blessed!!!! They keep making me cry because of their love. All the nice things that they say. So to every single one of you who are worried, thank you very much for your love. It keeps me going.

Yuneng's sms especially touched me.

"昨天金曲奖，有一句话我深深记得。当华语乐坛已经过了巅峰期时，我们必须回到音乐最初的本质。同样的，无论今天结果是什么，只要握住心中最初爱音乐，唱歌的本质，你就会遇见属于你的巅峰。"

Thanks Yuneng.

Argh, there are so much I want to write about 28th June 2009. But I'm just so exhausted.

Encouragement

2009-06-22T03:23:00.000-07:00

一向来，艺人们说一些“你们的鼓励是我的推动力”等，这类型的谢语，我都会觉得是客套话。我都会想“Sure or not??!"

今天，我有个领悟。我领悟到他们是认真的，是诚恳的！！！！

鼓励是一种无敌有力的推动力。我们华人的文化就是不太会说鼓励的话。在我们长大的过程，拿听写簿给妈妈看，只要不是满分，就会“打到满分”。就是说，90分，就打10下。厉害hor? 所以，lack of punishment becomes a reward.

我天生乐观，很会自己找称赞的话. 我妈没有骂我的时候，我就会调皮地说“哇！你没有打我，就是说我做对了啦？”妈妈就会有点不甘愿地“um！”一声。然后，我就会自满半天。人真的是需要 positive reinforcement 的。

我爸妈，很厉害。他们是无敌好爸妈！他们学会了....称赞！*clap clap clap* 所以，走这一条路，没有他们的鼓励，我是没有办法开心地追求的。当然你们留的那些 comments, 也是帮了我许多的！！谢谢你们。muacks!!!

我觉得我们每个人都有一种责任。对于你的家人，朋友，你有老实地给于他们鼓励吗？说一句好听的话，是不用花钱的！

Stop the criticism and judgment!!! Start telling your friends and family that you love them!!! The world will become a better place! Trust me, you will be happier too!

XingGuang5

2009-06-20T00:35:00.000-07:00

Yup, I joined 星光5 PK战!!!!

It was really a struggle for me. To join or not to join.

I'm just so tired and scared of the feeling of a competition. You know, the nerve breaking moment before going on stage, the nerve breaking and heart exploding moment before the result? aiyoh, those moment are unbearable. But in the end, I still joined la. I also don't know why in the end I went. I guess I just wanted to give myself a chance? I also don't know what kind of chances 星光5 can bring me. I mean after all, this is already the 5th season of the competition. And we are only going to appear for PK only. Owell.... 不要想太多！！！

So, I went. And I actually HAD FUN! Because I forced myself NOT to think too much! I was distracting myself by talking to other people, listening to other songs, praying, praying a lot to clear my mind, etc. And it was great. It was a lot of fun to sing. I mean I just LOVE singing. So when I just focus on the fun of singing. I forget that I'm on a stage and that I'm in a competition.

I went up there and I sang my heart out.

And so I got in to the 2nd round.

The 2nd round was easier because I already adjusted my 心情. So I went up there and I just sang like I did in the 1st round. Just enjoying myself. Wow!! They didn't stop me. All the other contestants only got to sing half a song. But I finished the song! I sang 《疼憨人》till the end! Wow!!

I really like singing. Be it for a small group of people, indoor stadium sized audience, competition or not, it's still singing. If I'm not conscious of the setting, I will be able enjoy singing.

Yippee!!!! So I'm going to enjoy myself on 28th June (3pm to 6pm), singing my lungs out at Kallang Leisure Park! See you there!!!!

Oh in the meantime, you can vote for me at http://onemillionstar.starhub.com/vote.php . Thanks!!

Next up!

2009-06-13T09:58:00.000-07:00

YEAH!! Jeff Wang's autograph session was a SUCCESS!!!

Wah, he really sang VERY well tonight. 很有feel.

The fans~

Celebrity friends who came down to support!

Jeff signing away~

HAHAHAH! This picture is so cute. This is like the only picture with Diya in it cos she's the one taking all the other pictures!

大合照!! Can you spot Le Sheng, Jon they all at the back? They also came to support.
See, 看这张照片就知道建复的人缘有多好！

好了！接下来，我和迪雅又要搞出什么新玩意呢？？？

We are going to collaborate with Mr Peter Tan from Music Clinic! We are conducting a very special vocal course for this holiday ONLY!!! Please visit musicclinic website for more detail.
VERY VERY limited seats only! So please act FAST!

Wow~ The teachers!!! hahaha...

There is so much to learn about singing. It took us quite a few meetings and a lot of brain cells, just to decide how best to teach the class. We don't just want to teach you the techniques. But we would also like to share with you very precious stage experiences which you probably won't hear anywhere else, furnished with these "gory" details. hahaha...

All in all, we aim to have fun, lardeedar~ with all our students. Well, actually we won't call ourselves teachers also lar~ This course is more like a 分享会. We know there are a lot of people out there who love to sing. We would like to share with you how to enjoy singing more and more~

Ok, check it out TODAY! I'm not kidding. It's REALLY LIMITED!

Jeff's Autograph session

2009-06-12T00:12:00.000-07:00

Dear all,

My dear friend Jeff Wang 王建复 is having an autograph session tomorrow!!!!!
Please please please come and support!!!! I'll be going as well, as a fan!

Album : Meng Tu
Venue : Vivo City Amphitheatre, level 3 (outdoor)
Date : 130609
Time : 8:30 p.m.

This is Jeff's first autograph session in Singapore, having waited for 10 years to be a singer, Jeff finally fulfilled his wish and have his debut album launched.

I know how it feels to finally have his dream come true. It's beautiful to see my friend here 坚持了这么久 and finally getting seeing it come true. So I want you guys to come as well. To witness this moment. Please get everyone to go with you! Bug your friends to have dinner with you at Vivocity and then go upstairs at 8.30pm. heh...

Ok, see you all there!!!

Oh gosh

2009-06-11T11:26:00.001-07:00

Brain dead.

Encounter with Terence Cao

2009-06-04T01:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, a very brilliant person said something really brilliant to me.

We were talking about writing songs. He suggested that I go and experience and explore something new everyday. Be it big or small. For example, change of ruote, or an activity that you have never tried before!

It's brilliant.

Yesterday, I tried for the 1st time, talking to Terence Cao. HAHA!

For the 1 year plus that I was with Mediacorp, I've never met Terence Cao. O Terence is my mum's idol. I mean, not that he's old ! But my mum is really hip. I just didn't want to fight with her you know. haha! Plus I was already a BIG BIG fan of Chew Chor Meng.

Yesterday, I finally met him. For the 1st time, I tried "having confidence in myself". Don't you some times feel that way? Like you are too "little" to talk to someone "big". Well, I do.

For the 1st time, I threw pride and self doubt away. My mum wanted a picture of him so I walked up to him and talked very casually to him. O man, he is SOOOO good looking! It's really hard to maintain eye contact with him siah. But I did! He didn't know that I was a singer. Because we never met at work before mah. And I didn't let that affect me. I just introduced myself properly. So we chatted for a while. Then I went on to tell him that my mum is a big fan. But she doesnt dare to come and take picture with you. I even joked and said "so she sent the better looking one to take a picture with you~". hahahaha!

Then he was so nice! After taking a picture with me, he was like "are you sure your mother doesnt want a picture? I can walk over to her you know?" He was so 大方 lo! So we walked over to where my mum was standing. She was SOOOO star struck la! She kept laughing! I'm so glad he offered! It made my mum really happy. Although she still complain that she didn't look good in her picture with him. haha! But seriously mum, it was a very good picture of you! Cos your smile was beautiful! hahaha!

So, lesson learnt on June 3rd, have confidence in yourself, but don't be proud. We are worthy.
New experience on June 3rd - look heart throbbing guy in his eyes. WOO! doki doki doki~

MAC sponsor

2009-05-27T13:43:00.000-07:00

Another piece of GREAT NEWS!!!!

You know, being in this industry, make up is so important. Because we NEeeeeeEEED Make up! And we constantly have to buy new make up product. I'm sooooo glad and sooooo grateful that M.A.C has started sponsoring me!!!!! Thing is, I've always favoured M.A.C and have always been using M.A.C. They have fantastic colors. I love their blushers, foundation, etc. Especially their mascara! It's the best I've tried on. Their marketing campaigns are always so innovative, glamourous and loud.

I also love that they have a great cause behind their products. There is a M.A.C Aids Fund, which is raised by the sale of Viva Glam products. I love that they are beyond beauty products. To me, M.A.C is more than a cosmetic brand, it's a lifestyle. Similarly, I do not want my voice to be just a voice. One day, I want to do good with my talent.

Thank you soooo much M.A.C!!!! And Serene for helping me link up with M.A.C.

For more information about M.A.C, you may visit any of their stores, or their website here.

new song

2009-05-26T14:32:00.000-07:00

Heyhey~

I've added the 书包太重Sub Theme song in my imeem playlist. Wah, really took me super long to get it up. Aiyoh, I really can't figure out imeem. ha! But somehow, finally, got it up. phew~

Ok, enjoy. I thought I sound very different with this song. Take a listen ba~

简单真的很好

2009-05-22T15:06:00.000-07:00

简单真的很好

I think... I think too much.
Like this afternoon, when I passed through a ERP gantry, I got really quite angry. I really cannot agree with the ERP system. It's like a filter away the poor system. It's like saying "if you can't afford to pay $1, don't use this road!" WAT???? When I was driving along Orchard Rd, I noticed Scotts Rd was JAM PACKED while Orchard Rd was empty!!! Because everyone was avoiding the ERP? And I also noticed that the few cars on Orchard Rd were Merc or BMW or some luxury car. (I'm not driving a luxurious car, just very late!) Why is the government's solution to traffic congestion a discrimination against poor people!!!!! gggggrrrr..... Why not put a gantry that only allows cars under $100,000 to use this road? Cos anyway the expensive cars are faster right? They can take the further route! haha.

And why MUST orchard road be empty??? While Scotts Rd is so congested?? Oh! So that pedestrians can run across the 4 lane road from Lucky Plaza to Ngee Ann City! That's right!

urghh... I dunno why i trouble myself with such things!! But I do get quite gek over it lo!

That's why I say I think too much. A friend sent an sms to me before regarding some other matter... blah blah "was lousy because all these jokers (big bosses with only $ on their mind) want is Fast $ regardless the means. Typical world eh but i'm not in this race. haha. me live in my simple world."

WAH! Brilliant! HE totally 置身事外 lo! Although he is in the middle of things. I can see him, not bothering and enjoying life. He likes to cycle and would cycle all the way to Changi and around the island. A nice song can make him happy for a really long time.

I think all we can do is, do the best we can in our own areas. And more importantly, enjoy the simple things in life. Don't worry about things that are bigger than you. Like the stupid ERP!!! Not like I'm interested in governing the country right? Why was I worrying and getting angry over a stupid ERP gantry?

Of course, we should be socially responsible. We need to take stands, make decisions, fight for our rights or dreams, be involved in this society because we are in it. But we can only do what we can do.

We can enjoy the stars as they are laid out in the sky. We can also move our heads around to look at them at different angles. But we can't move the stars around to form the shape of doraemon in the sky right? =D

did I make any sense? hahahahahahhaa.......

Post TPB Part 2

2009-05-20T07:38:00.000-07:00

Did you read today's news about TPB?

I'm really surprised by the papers reaction to this whole lip synch-ing saga. I don't even know why it's a saga! Did you really not expect? Oops. i better say no more about this.

What I really wanted to say is DYT's respond to the papers! It was very well said. I was very impressed. As an audience, I would be able to respect what DYT has said about pre-recording because the company wanted him to focus on acting and dancing parts. There are one thousand and one thing to focus on when we are on stage. Especially as lead actors. So I can understand if he decides a few days before the show to pre record his singing parts and probably lessen his burden just a little. I'm not saying that I can accept lip synch-ing. But I can accept his explanation. It's really not easy for non-singers to be thrown on stage and expect to do what we do you know? hahaha...

Wah, lately because of TPB i have a lot of material to blog about siah. haha.

Anyway, I would also like to say that for everyone who has read diya's comment on the papers.... please visit her blog for the full "story". She was interviewed when she was a sleepy head. I think it's easy to misinterpret what she "said" in the papers. So maybe you should read her blog yourself. (her blog link is by the sidebar)

woo, exciting.

Post TPB

2009-05-18T11:04:00.000-07:00

Actually, it was overall a very good experience for me. I know, you must have read a lot of negative report on this production. I will not respond to that la. Every one has their right to review it to their honest opinion. And I'm ok with that.

But I really had a lot of fun! LOOK!!!

fun right??

crazy bibiks.

Sigh, I was really upset when Chen Tai Ming's mic was off at one point, the scene were the 3 kaypohs were disturbing Yue Niang. That part, Tai Ming's lines were funny lo!!!!

ARRRGHHH!! 如花！！！

Then I became one too! Oh so happy to see Pierre Png. He just pop by to say hi to everyone. Rem? He was my Big Brother in Defining Moment, and i am so charmed by him!

The last Tech Run before the actual show. Look at Ann!!! She's so chio even without make up!!!! Some say she was the prettiest in the Peranakan Ball. And I would have to AGREE!!!! woo! hot!

Miss Abracadebra is soooo sensitive to camera la!!! It was really super duper fun working with her!

庆功宴 at The House of Peranakan Cuisine at the new Pan Pacific in Orchard!

The endless high pitched yam sengs. We also did some 4-part yamsengs with Olivia! hahaha... that was really funny.

Tadah~ DYT!!!

I think he has a very bright future! I think.... he is the sort of person who would be easily misunderstood as "arrogant" or "attitude". Err... actually he has an attitude la. But I think that's really quite attractive for a male artiste leh. hur hur hur...

But he's definitely NOT arrogant la. He needed a little bit of warming up, but he's really fun to "play" with. Diya, Ann and him played all sorts of games lo! (I'm not a gamer, just watch and laugh). It included, scissors-paper-stone (advanced mode), hei-bai-pei, arm wrestling, staring game, etc.

HAHA! She's really light!

Finally!!! A proper picture of 3 of us!!!!!

The CHOOS!!!! Jo, you are amazing! In my opinion, or my own review, I would write that you stole the show la! You shine man!

The director - Goh Boon Teck! heh, we very rude hor??! Diya's idea!!!! hahahaha

Us with Elaine (Music director) and WenFu (Music arranger)!

Most of the crew!!!!

Through this production... i felt LOVE!!!!! I was sooooo surprised to find THESE!!

This is from our dearest "da jie".... miss doraemon.

And this is from AUNTIE LUCY???? and SABO aka RA aka crazy gang. WOW!!!! hahaha..

Thank you so much, people!!!! I really had to fight my tears back cos it was right before the show and i can't let my make up smudge! I was really very touched!

I also heard from someone that the choos had one of the loudest cheers during curtain call. I bet it's all of you right? All my dear friends who were there to support us. 真是受宠若惊！

And most of all, Thank you Miss Pilates for being such a great friend. Seriously, life wouldn't have been half as fun without you. You are a walking entertainment! hahaha... And you bring joy and laughter to everyone around you! I always wonder, how do you do it? How do you just jump into any setting and fill it with joy and positron! Oh and I think Poh Choo did a GREAT JOB!! Even if the papers don't seem to recognize it. =) You were SOOOO GREAT!! The part where you try to separate the couple, I always wanna 笑场 lo!!!

I would say, for me, it's not the result that matter. It's always the journey that meant more to me... 1 year later, the bad reviews will fade away, but the sweet memories of this production would always be with me.

It's finally over... TPB!

2009-05-18T06:18:00.000-07:00

Wow, it's all over the papers. Seriously, all papers. woo!
That's the impact that The Peranakan Ball had.

But yah, it's not great reviews. I'm really ok with us not getting great reviews. Some will like it, some will hate it. But what I can't stand is.... what i'm really quite pissed off with is.... i quote them "singer olivia ong was the only one who sang 'live' in her rendition of various songs including the main theme song." Excuse me!!!!!!! Were you even there?????? rendition of various songs???? She sang ONE song, the drama theme song. And the worst part... WE SANG LIVE TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAARRGGHHH!!!!!!! I hate being accused of lip synch-ing. I'm a professional singer and that's a big insult! You claim that the lip synching is so obvious and then you didn't realise that we sang live!!!

ARGH!!!! I can't get over this. You put our faces (diya, jo tan and me) big big (half a page!) and then you said only Olivia sang live?????? It's a slap on our faces lo! All 3 of us are full time singers can! aarghh!!!!!!

Really quite pissed.

fuming!

More about the peranakan ball

2009-05-11T16:14:00.001-07:00

Aiyoh!!! Diya is a much better writer! BUT she's a THIEF!!!!! I took some more pictures to blog about! But SHE POSTED IN HER BLOG ALREADY!!!!!! THIEF!!!!

Ok, fine. Since she's a better writer, please go to her blog for her updates on the rehearsals of The Peranakan Ball. She makes it sounds soooo fun! haha. Well, it is. Argh, but she posted some ugly photos of me. ggrrrr... *pull hair*

This weekend!??!??

2009-05-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

Oh my goodness!!!! The show is this Saturday?? Are you serious???
So soon????

It's ok, it's ok, it's gonna be great! 冷静冷静！

Countdown to The Peranakan Ball: 5 days!

长大

2009-05-07T11:42:00.000-07:00

我刚发现大家都忙着长大。。。而我却。。。

Facebook is great siah. I've found a lot of secondary school classmates recently. And one of them, whom i just added a few days ago, messaged me today. And I replied... "how are you? are you married also?? everyone is like married and having kids.... scary~"

怎么知道去她的Info page一看，staring at me "relationship status: Married" Aaaarrrgghhh....

天啊！我真的是处在“适婚恋龄”的正中央，好不好！最近左看右看，当年一起幼稚，疯癫的朋友，竟然抱着一个小BB。这个画面怎么看我都没办法了解，也无法适应。

尤其是你啊～我亲爱的薇薇小姐。那是你吗？你怀里那超口爱的BB真的是小薇薇？？？

大家都长大了。而我还在原点。在人生的马拉松，我什么时候被抛在那么远的后头了？

结婚，生子，对我来说，是一则又一则的故事，跟现实有一段距离。

More about Lil Nyonya musical

2009-05-05T02:06:00.000-07:00

Thank you Celene for asking the question about the other casts in The Peranakan Ball musical. Because in the theatre world, they are the star la!

(please ignore my wanna sleep face. sometimes i also dunno why i give such ugly expressions)
This is... Jo Tan! One of our sisters, our 大姐! She's amazing!
She's soooo 努力 and so funny! Sometimes she acts on TV too, although she mainly does theatre/ musicals. Her singing is damn power la, can-break-glasses kind.

I remember seeing her in 黄文鸿的大卫必佳! She was soooo good!

L-to-R: Farhan Mohd, Kelly Tuan, Toby Chiang, Cindy Zhuang and Esther Yap
Here are 5 of the ensemble.

I'll have to go and take more pics.... Cos I only have Darius Tan's leg and some cannot-be-published pictures of the rest. hahaha..

Ok, will try and take some decent pictures tonight or tomorrow. Till then~ take care!!! And GRAB your tickets!!!!

Freshmusic

2009-04-30T14:22:00.000-07:00

我真的自叹不如。

Whenever I visit Freshmusic's website, that's how I'd feel. I would also leave the website feeling charged up! There's so much passion 在字里行间！

Oh in case you don't know Freshmusic, they are "四个蔬果类一起经营的音乐部落格。" I think they are brilliant! You would see a new post almost every other day, or even every day. And It's really 深思熟虑, all well researched, well written articles! They also introduce so many GOOD music. Like 张悬! Oh and 杨乃文! I like!!! 每次读他们的乐评，都觉得自己学到了多一些。特别喜欢他们对于音乐的一种责任心。他们不怕回响，没有唱片公司的压力，自由地，老实地，写出他们的感言。They are my most trusted music reviewers.

Everyday, I find myself having one thousand and one to-dos. I would put them aside and every other day I find myself with one thousand and two to-dos. Then I decide not to do some of them, leaving me with one thousand and one to-dos. Yes, the maths is a little weird but you get the idea. My point here is.... where do they find time??????

I think.... the difference is.... they MAKE time for music. URGH!!!! 我自愧不如.

BURNING!!!! 燃える！(which means burning!) I shall squeeze my brain juice to write a song.

NOW!

17 Again

2009-04-29T10:41:00.000-07:00

Speaking of movie review, recently I watched a VERY good movie! heh.

17 AGAIN!!

I watch 17 again, then 17again again and most probably i'm going to watch 17 again AGAIN!!!

I think it's a very happy movie. You know sometimes, I think movie reviewers over-analyze a movie. Deep, fascinating, philosophical movies, with great artistic angles, impress them. I love them cheemelogy kinda movies as well. But sometimes, you just gotta see what does the producers / directors want to achieve? Not every director aim to make you cry. Some simply wants to bring you joy. Like in the case of 17 Again, I left the cinema so light hearted, so warm and fuzzy, so HAPPY! Both times.

That's why, I think it's a great movie. Just because it makes me happy and troubles left me during and after the show. Life is full of troubles already. Do we need to add more troubles by watching cheemology movies?

PLUS! Zac Efron is soooooo yuuuummmmmm....

*melts*

Star Awards 2009

2009-04-28T09:27:00.000-07:00

WAH, 今年的红星大奖还搞得蛮轰轰烈烈的嘛。

真的很高兴，“最佳男配角”颁给了周初明。

我是在家里和朋友家人一起，一边吃我妈妈做的火锅餐（超好吃的！！），一边看着节目。颁发“最佳男配角”的时候，大家都好期待，希望是周初明得奖。尤其是我！我从小就很迷周初明。只为他，到Marina square的广场去人挤人，就为了他的签名。年轻的时候，我真的没有为别人这么疯狂了。我想接下来，再也没有像当天那样挤到差点死掉，不是窒息死，就是被人压死。没记错的话，当时我也太矮了，只有140多？在人潮里，氧气都被高人吸光了。

帅！！！！！！！！

我相信那不是个“同情奖”。我有追看《黄金路》。“凯达”真的可怜到～我觉得初明哥哥真的演得太好了！每次凯达出现，我就会泪流满面。*clap clap clap clap*

其他的奖项，我就不怎么care~了！哈哈哈！

The Peranakan Ball

2009-04-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

最近，我的人生就是一场!

Yup, I've been busy with the preparation of the ball! heh. Hanging up the decorations etc. Right... ok, i'm corny. Everyday is... "kawan kawan... 准备好一起来欢庆... Sama sama... ". Or other songs.

Dancing... singing... dancing... singing.

Well, actually I don't have MANY lines. I have... hmm... 自己来看就知道了! HAHA! Let's make this a game - a 无奖问答游戏! The question is... "How many lines does Carrie Yeo has in the musical?"

But I think my character is quite endearing... I hope.

地点：Singapore Indoor Stadium

演出日期：2009年 5月 16日，星期六

时间：晚上八点正

票价：$118*, $96, $80, $68, $58 (不包括 SISTIC 附加费)

*凡是购买票价$118的朋友们都能出席与《娘惹之恋》演员们在演出后的见面会

For more info... click!

Oh! A little update: I'd be performing at Bishan Junction 8 on the 3rd May at 5pm for their Mother's Day Event. I would also be the judge for the semi finals of the competition.

Short attention span

2009-04-15T02:54:00.000-07:00

I remember my love for reading.

I love the feeling of emerging myself totally into a story. It's like watching a movie. When I watch a movie, I am super 投入 one. I would grab the chair when watching "Taken" (which by the way is awesome in my opinion). I felt so tired after that movie session as my muscles were all tensed up. I'll cry. I'll laugh so loudly, even if no one else laughs. I've ever laughed so hard that I rolled onto the cinema floor. I'm not being drama, it really happened when I watched "Welcome back Mr Macdonald", a Japanese movie. Yah, some of my friends are ashamed to watch movie with me.

But movie is not as satisfying as reading a book. It's a quick fix! It gives you all the emotion with a short plot for instant satisfaction. Reading a book is much more than that.

I used to read a lot in my anti-social days in JC. I used to read a lot under the influence of my book-loving closest friends.

But now..... I can't finish any book!!!!!!!!!

I bought at least 6 books from Taiwan. So eager to read them! But I haven't started on ANY!!! I would pick up one book and think, "hmm.... maybe I should read this other one 1st." Then if I pick the other one up, "hmmm.. this seemed a little slow, maybe I should read this other one 1st."

And it goes on....

SO, in the end, I haven't read ANY!!!

The last book that I read was during my last Taiwan trip, and that was SO LONG AGO!!!! booohoooohooo... Where has my patience gone? Why's my attention span so short now??? Nowadays, there's like a thousand and one other things to do. If I had an hour of break, there are a thousand and one things that I can fill it up with, things that I SHOULD do to improve myself as a singer or as a person. I could be practising songs, writing lyrics, blogging, practising keyboard, writing some tunes, practising or preparing for the musical, etc etc etc etc.

In view of all these other important things that I should be doing, reading seemed less important. But I really like to read! Then how?

.......

Then read la! ok, I shall try and pick up a book now. TA!

Lil Nyonya Musical!

2009-04-09T23:49:00.000-07:00

You must have heard!!!!

The next big thing is... Lil Nyonya Musical!
And we are in it! whee~

2 days ago, we woke up early in the morning to shoot the TVC. I wonder if it's out yet.

As you would have seen in the drama, all the nyonyas have buns. Hahaha, so the hair stylist had to bun up Diya and my short hair! You cannot imagine how much spray was on us man...

I can't believe they managed to make diya look like this!!!! HAHAHAHAHA! pretty right? Well, she's acting as the "hot favourite" in our Aunty's eyes.

Have you seen the TVC? I can't wait to see it!!! The Baba House is such a beautiful place! With our colorful costumes, and beautiful choreography, I can't wait!

Ok, drop a msg if you have seen it ok? Better still if it's on youtube or something~!

Rushing off to another practice!

Woodwood

2009-04-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!!! I'm back in Singapore!!! Finally.

It's been a crazy month. So much has happened. So many meetings and plans are being cooked up. And then I went to Taiwan to... learn. Hmm... can't say much about that! =P Just that I really enjoyed my taiwan trip and I've learnt a lot.

Anyway, I've got a good news!!!! The very kind and wonderful woodwood is sponsoring me clothes!!!!! WAAAHHH!!!! Rem I introduced one of their pieces in wanbao previously and they have decided to sponsor me some clothes! I'm so happy because I'm a fan! Their items are very simple, classy but not in the serious, corporate way. There are always interesting details in their pieces. Like this one that I wore to Street Fighter movie premiere.

(Btw, I finally met the super gorgeous and nice Wong Lilin. So High! )

Here's a closer look and you'll see that its sleeve and collar is very very unique.

I looooove the details of this dress. Notice the gathered waist line too.

Heyhey, interested? Well, I'll tell you a bit more about them.

Woodwood was establish in Nov 2007 retailing fashion labels from around Asia. To set themselves apart from all the other stores in Singapore, the owners designed woodwood to have a sense of chill out and romance to go along with clothes that are beautiful, simple and comfortable. To them the process/experience of shopping is as important to feeling good as the purchasing itself and there are many people out there just like us.

Woodwood started its own in-house fashion label, Private Label by woodwood in Sep 2008. Private Label clothes are simple and stylish but yet not conventional.

Cool huh? They are really cool people. I've met them a few times and I like that they have a lot of heart in what they are doing. You can tell from the way they talk about their pieces or their business that they are really passionate about their designs. It's an artform lo! Look at how nicely made that black shirt dress is.

Furthermore, they are local designers. I like to think of us as being in the same shoes. We are local "artist" trying to carve a name for ourselves amidst a lot of international / overseas "artist". Jia you, woodwood!!! 只要持续我们的热忱和心，我们可以做到的！！！

Please do visit their shop at Far East Plaza #03-88.

Will be featuring more clothes from them~ Look out for it in this space~!

Kids...

2009-03-15T23:02:00.000-07:00

I think I'm very smart in many ways (oh! i learnt self praising from my mom! hahaha)

Ok fine, I'll be humble. I THINK i'm quite smart in quite a few ways. BUT!!!! Kids... I'm really clueless when it comes to little people. What can you say to a 5 year-old? What can you do with a 4-year-old? I can only smile stupidly at them and hope that they can see that i'm friendly at least. bleah. lame attempt. And i like kids, well, the cute and polite ones. Just that it's like my handicap, I just simply become very helpless with kids.

Ok, just another random info for you to get to know me. hahah!

Busy Weekend

2009-03-05T00:58:00.000-08:00

This weekend is a busy weekend.

On Saturday, we are attending e娱乐大赏. Yeah, I love that we have 2 award show in Singapore now. It's like Singapore music is getting more attention! And we get to see live performances by Sun yan zi and 小猪 etc. So I'm looking forward to that.... I've already bought my clothes for the show!! hehe!!!! I love it. Shall take a picture for you all.

On Sunday, VERY early in the morning, Diya's FYP documentary - downstairs is screening at 9am!!!! aaarrrghhh... tooooooo early!!!! but i think it's worth climbing out of bed for. please people, wake up and get inspired! What's more satisfying than early morning inspiration? (whisper: sleeeeeep) BUT this is the only chance for you to see the other talent of DIYA!!! She's a freeaking director leh! Ok, please go to her blog for more info.

Ok, then, on Sunday evening, D and I will be performing at Talentquest 2009 at NTUC Auditorium. So if you are interested, could buy a tix (at $12) from the organiser. Check out their website for more info.

$20

2009-03-04T11:13:00.000-08:00

我发现一件很有趣的事情。

衣服，有贵贱。算计衡量艺术价值，一条裙子可以是S$40，也可以是$2000。
食物，也分贵贱。一样根据其艺术价值，一餐可以S$5解决，也可以是$100。

可是，一片CD，不管品质好坏，一样是S$20！我们是赚到的咯！S$20在现在的社会能买到什么？

$20是多，或是少呢？

比起一辆汽车，房子，$20算什么？
$20可能连一件t-shirt都买不到。
$20可以买4份快餐套餐，
可以吃上5碗肉挫面，
可以买一片消耗n年时间、精力换来的唱片，
可以见识音乐人的理想，
可以宣誓对艺术、对音乐的坚持和respect。

阿信说的好诚恳：
“讓我們知道，在這個時代裡面，五月天的想法，不是一場錯誤，不是一場一廂情願的相信。
讓我們確確切切的知道，唱片不會死，音樂不會死，
而真心，可以換到真心。” （全文）

如果我们对音乐持续“能省则省”的态度，很快的真的就听不到好音乐了。最近因为认识了很多音乐人，他们嘴边总是挂着“sigh, it's tough”。他们不是无聊说说博同情。他们真的被科技打败了。现在网上download一首歌，只需少过1分钟。真他妈的快。你们下载得越快，音乐人就越坚持。

我不是很传统、很刻板地在说“不要download！”
我想说的是，“Don't be a murderer! 不要亲手抹杀好音乐！”。

好听就把它买下来，你的$20是音乐人的强心针，让他们再坚持一下下。

晚报－fashion feature

2009-03-01T12:33:00.000-08:00

Did you see 晚报 on Saturday??

Well, if you missed it, here it is....

I was doing a fashion feature on Celebrity's looks under SGD150. It was not easy to achieve a complete look under $150, i realize, especially if i include the shoes, bag and accessories. Oh by the way, we styled ourselves. I really liked the 3 looks that I featured. I think they represents me.

My style is VERY simple. I like clean look. I don't like to over accessorize. If I'm wearing earring, you won't see necklace on me. Or if I'm wearing a necklace, I won't wear earrings. And if my blouse is fancy, I will wear very basic bottoms.

That's why for me, to keep it budget, I buy a lot of basics - basic tank tops, basic jeans (in different shades), basic shirt, etc. The trick is just to find the best cut. That pair of jeans in the picture, is like my favourite pair of jeans. It has got a fabulous cut that makes my leg look skinny. It's not just any skinny jeans. It's tailored in such a way that it trims the shape of my leg but still make it very comfortable to wear. So I say, spend on a pair of good jeans, even if it's a little bit more pricey. Think about the zillion times that you are going to wear it, it's worth it every cent. It's extremely important.

By the way, I found a fantastic shop in Far East - Woodwood.

It is totally my style - chic feminine. This dress+vest look (featured in WB and pictured below) is fully from woodwood. You might have noticed, I like to wear loose clothings. But I will match it with something fitting to form a sillouette. I love the combination of the vest and the puffy dress underneath. It's feminine yet with a character.

I bought quite a few pieces from them. Like this one... it's so 阳光! I'm gonna find a day when I go to Sentosa to wear it. I would love to wear it with a hat! hahah...

... and this one.... Actually I brought this to the photoshoot as well. Because I thought this dress make a very good and affordable evening look. You know like there are so many wedding dinners to go to! (Especially when you are 20+) So I thought this dress would make a good evening look. It's very classy yet, there's something quite special about it - the sleeve! Ok lah, maybe you can't tell from this. Next time, when I wear it, I'll take another pic.

And I LOVE their accessories!!!! like this one...

It goes perfectly with simple tops (like my white top and jeans look in WB feature, I was wearing this necklace). The necklace below is in the shape of an envelope with an actual LETTER that says I love you!! haaha... I thought that's very quirky and cute.

I think it makes a great gift as well.

Well, if you like you can visit them at level 3 of Far East Plaza, somewhere near my hair sponsor - Clover.

im a weirdo...

2009-02-20T13:55:00.001-08:00

think lately, i've been doing a lot of self reflection and self discovery.
because i realise.... something in me is changing.
and i realise i havent been very happy.
i think too much until i'm a little mad.

who am i?
i'm sure i know who i am.
But i'm not sure which parts of me can be accepted by others and which parts are not.
i wanna be a well-liked person, of course.
but i am flawed.
how much should i change?
should i change?
somethings just can't be changed.

i don't expect anyone to understand my blog post. dun worry.
i'm really just venting out some of my own thoughts for myself to read in time to come.

不良笑花

2009-02-16T19:16:00.000-08:00

自信的人最美丽。

我觉得很多人都忽略了自信的重要。真的。
可是自信是很深层的。不是表面上的自信，不是做给别人看的自信。
不是发自内心的自信是有反效果的。

好像不良笑花里的小花！！那种造型不是典型的美啊！可是真的太可爱了！真的超好看的！
Addicted now. 呼呼～

really carrie

2009-02-10T11:18:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAH... did a quick "What Sex and the City character are you?" and guess what's my result????? hahahahahha.....

Carrie

You're quirky, witty, and every guy's perfect first date.

oh my, i'm really Carrie.

时间倒转

2009-02-07T22:33:00.000-08:00

将把窗帘换成完全挡住太阳的roller blind。

早上7点睡觉，舒服多了。哈！

时间倒转，
肌肤完蛋。

呼呼～

huuhuu~ post esplanade

2009-02-03T11:29:00.001-08:00

I'm so glad!!!!! The Esplanade show was GOOD and BAD!!!! hahaha! I thought my voice was in a pretty good condition. And i think i did 新不了情 pretty well. *shy*

I thought I would stumble all over my words, coz I have never addressed a big audience alone before!! There's always a host! oh my, i was soooo scared. But I think I did not do as badly as I thought. Definitely not great. I get really nervous when I have to talk (by myself). I was soooo tempted to pull Diya on stage or Peifen to come and host! haha. But ok, i survived! huuhuu~ I totally enjoy singing more than hosting! phew~ like what Xing Ang said, I am more myself and more 放 when I'm singing.

BUT!

there was a disaster! I tried to squeeze in my own repertoire - 伤痕. That song meant something to me. That was the 1st time I joined a singing competition during my secondary school days, with a pop song. (err... i used to sing 民歌 when i joined those pri school singing competition) And I got 2nd. bleah. But the band didn't know how to play the song. So oh my, it was such a disaster. They played something, I did not recognise it, and i tried to catch it, and i couldnt. I already said I was gonna sing so I can't just "oh aiyah, let's sing another song". So 硬着头皮, I tried to sing along. But it just doesnt work. My mind was in a chaos "怎么办？怎么办？" I said "好吧！那不如我来清唱吧！" But the band played along! And I still don't know what they were playing. Sigh... I had to stop the song prematurely. And move on to the next song.

That was very embarrassing........

I'm still haunted by that performance. *shivers*

Esplanade Show

2009-01-30T22:57:00.000-08:00

Dear all,

If you are free tonight, I would like to invite you to bring your parents to Esplanade. Because I'll be singing 怀旧金曲. From 往事只能回味,千言万语 to 伤痕in the 90s. My parents will be coming too~ heh. And I bet everyone will find the songs familiar, not just our parents. =) If not, you learn something, coz these oldies are ever green, ever nice!

It will start at 8.30pm SHARP! At the Esplanade outdoor stage. There's no need to worry about the road closure due to chingay. If you are driving, just come by from shenton area. You could exit at CTE Havelock road, drive all the way straight until golden shoe, turn left to esplanade drive and turn left into car park. There's no jam what so ever because everyone thinks there's a jam and avoid the roads. heh.

Ok, hope to see you!

新年快乐！

2009-01-25T13:08:00.000-08:00

新年快乐！！！

2009到来的时候，我就很希望2009会改掉我在2008的霉运。结果2009比2008还烂！
真希望霉运是走农历的。那今天开始我就有希望转好运。哈哈！

希望大家都在牛年行好运！真的有时候做人，努力过了，就需要那一点的好运。希望大家能在牛年效仿牛大哥的默默耕耘，那加上好运，就能如愿以偿！因为“只有做好准备的人，才能迎接好运”。

大家，加油喔！

it's getting better!

2009-01-21T09:44:00.000-08:00

YEAH!!! I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel...

For one, I've decided to delete people who are negative in my life. Some people just wants to bring trouble, consciously or unconsciously. So, good bye. I'm going to treat that our paths never crossed and you can live your life happily and I will live mine happily.

Secondly, we've found an owner for Ponyo! Oh, we've decided to name the dog we found Ponyo. Like the anime. HAHA! Sorry for the lack of creativity. Stan who left a comment on my blog, expressing his interest in keeping the dog. He left me his blog address. After reading his blog, I had a strong feeling that he'll be a super nice and caring owner to Ponyo! So we met up just now. From the 1st impression, I can tell the 2 of them are going to get along really well!! When we met up he already has plans about where he will keep Ponyo, and he wanted to bring ponyo to swim in the sea, etc. I was really touched by his love for dogs. And I was so emo that Ponyo will be in such good hands. Okok, maybe i 言之过早, too early to judge, but i believe they will live happily together. =) haha. Oh! and he stays in a strategic location for us to VISIT! yeah!

Thirdly, I went shopping today!!!! Shopped for CNY clothes! hah! I bought quite a few items. Retail therapy ROX!!! I feel so much cheerier after shopping. Of course, I had great company.... Thanks pf for shopping with me the whole day!

Ohhh, I had a great day! I'll sleep with a big smile tonight!

Countdown 2009

2009-01-18T07:51:00.000-08:00

Countdown to 2009!

This is the 2nd time we did a countdown in vivocity. And it's just lovely. I love the skyline. I love the little water garden on the rooftop just next to the stage. If I had a boyfriend, I would go to the rooftop there, 好浪漫...

Did you know, why it never rained for mediacorp outdoor shows???

Haha, can you guess what they are?

I don't know how it works. But they are always there when there's an outdoor show. And they managed to keep the skies clear for us. =)

Diya had to get ready real early because she has another countdown show before the mdc one. So she was rushing like mad. She was so worried about a jam. Everyone tells her that it's very difficult for her to get back in time because there will surely be a jam. But hey, it was clear road every where man. haha!

These pretty things are what makes us pretty... haha.

Here's Diya with Keely and Ivy for 宇宙小姐. I thought D was really cool and seh~ like ella? haha. Then keely must have been selina and Ivy was hebe. correct? haha... but of cos, they are not SHE! they are themselves!

Another group of SHE! haha. Hmm... D still E? Teresa so sweet, so she's gotta be selina. Then I'm Hebe lo!

picture picture~! After our performance, we were just cam whoring all the way. ha!

Pat mok is hilarious! She's crazily fun!!!

I havent seen Daren and Nat for such a long time. So I was really glad to have agreed to do the show. ha.

Junli was the wobby again. He's the best wobbie, don't you agree?

Shawn is a ham sap boy!! hahaa.. ok la, pat is the ham sap one! This is such a funny picture!

I had purposely worn my "long time no see" top. Since leaving mediacorp, I haven't seen my friends for so long! Not just the artiste, the makeup artist, the stylist, the wardrobe ladies, crew, etc! Including Jesseca. Some times, I agree to do mediacorp shows just so that I can catch up with my friends. =)

And that, is a great way to start the year.

err, yah but after that it hasn't been very pretty. BUT it's getting better!!!! I'll super happy girl soon! Thank you taggers, friends, family for all the concern! I'm sure it'll be better after CNY, after the mooooo comes in and give me a boost! haha.