every day i wake up, and i try, and i strive, to be this
SUPER HAPPY GIRL
you'll never know me
but you may know my name

carrie yeo.
Is a walking contradiction.

Happy-go-lucky yet emotional.
Over-confident yet suffers from inferiority complex.
Love to sing yet afraid of the stage.
Always hopeful about the future but always living in the present.
Adventurous in bigger life experiences like joining Project Superstar but very cowardly in trivial thrills like monkey bars.

Always fighting with herself in the mind like there are 5 Carrie's in there.

Blogging is a way to straighten out thoughts for her.
Blogging is a way for her to leave clues for herself,
so that in ten years time,
Carrie might start to understand herself better....

driving frees my mind
and so i tweet.


over coffee, we agree...
to disagree.


but there's always help
when you are looking.

Layout: hasta mañana
Inspiration: balloon.s
Fonts: toomunch
Icons: defying affection
Lyrics: Funny Little World
Others: colour codes





Love yourself (Tuesday, July 21, 2009 / 10:17 AM)

I was at Casual Poet's blog. And there was this question that she posted "Do you love yourself? If so why? If not, why?"

I thought about it...

I pondered...

..... my answer was "I have to love myself because i know that i can only depend on me to love me."

I'm saying in general. Life. Human Beings. For me, I know I have my family, who love me so. And I love them too. *muacks* But in general, you just have to love yourself! Lately, I'm losing some confidence in friendship. The concept of friendship. I love my friends la. But really, 人与人的相处 is hard. Honesty or distance? Well that's a whole other topic, which I can't go into right now, cos I just CAN'T figure it out! ok nvm... back to my point...

I guess this is how I define optimism.... When i love myself, I'm secured. When I'm secured, every thing is positive and life just seems a little easier.

My point is... people, love yourself! I don't mean 自私 and 自大. I'm talking about 自爱. Love yourself, cherish yourself. Love life. When you love yourself, you'll learn to love people around you. And the world might just become a better place.

And for me now, I love God. And I'm learning to love people like Jesus did. It's HARD!!! But i'm trying. (Oh this is probably the 1st time I talk about God on my blog huh? Yup, I'm a new creation~! Thank God!)

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Music taste (1) (Sunday, July 19, 2009 / 2:08 PM)

That day, on Facebook, Fannie tagged me in one of her shuffle-your-ipod notes and told me that she wants to know my music taste.

"hmmm......"

So I "played the game". But then I realise, it doesn't work on me!!! My itunes now is full of demos and minus-ones. haha! And I don't have a lot of songs in my itunes, because I have most of my favourite songs in CDs. I drive so I like to listen to them in my car. Come to think about it, I don't listen to my ipod that much. haha!

Anyway, so then this lil game on facebook, inspired me to share the kinda music that i like. So I'm gonna start a series of music sharing.

Today, I'm gonna introduce to you... Love Psychedelico!!!!!

I guess everyone knows... I'm a Mayday fan. Yup, they are my absolute favourite. So I won't state the obvious. 再来, the next obvious one is Amei. Oh by the way, divert a bit, have you heard her latest album??



ARGH!! I love it!!! Please look out for 掉了, 词曲written by 吳青峯.
Actually I really like her 嘶吼般的唱法,仿佛把技巧and caution 丢掉,放肆,真实地唱。NICE!

Ok, wait!!! I wanna talk about Love Psychedelico.


love psychedelico

The band was formed in 1997 by singer Kumi and guitarist Naoki Sato, while studying at Aoyama Gakuin University in Tokyo.



Something special about this band is that their lyrics is a mix of English and Japanese. In fact, about 50% each. Most J-pop songs which tries to mix English in their lyrics, usually don't make sense or well, weak sense. But Kumi grew up in the US so their English is VERY GOOD and you can actually understand her. And best still, you can't tell that you are listening to Japanese! haha! nice! I really like to 氛围 or mood that their music put me in. I just feel like throw my head in whatever direction that the music pushes when I listen to them.

Nice. Pls take a listen to them. If you like, buy their CD. I liked the 1st 2 albums better, "The Greatest Hits" and "Orchestra". Check it out yo~

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Encouragement (Monday, June 22, 2009 / 3:23 AM)

一向来,艺人们说一些“你们的鼓励是我的推动力”等,这类型的谢语,我都会觉得是客套话。我都会想“Sure or not??!"

今天,我有个领悟。我领悟到他们是认真的,是诚恳的!!!!

鼓励是一种无敌有力的推动力。我们华人的文化就是不太会说鼓励的话。在我们长大的过程,拿听写簿给妈妈看,只要不是满分,就会“打到满分”。就是说,90分,就打10下。厉害hor? 所以,lack of punishment becomes a reward.

我天生乐观,很会自己找称赞的话. 我妈没有骂我的时候,我就会调皮地说“哇!你没有打我,就是说我做对了啦?”妈妈就会有点不甘愿地“um!”一声。然后,我就会自满半天。人真的是需要 positive reinforcement 的。

我爸妈,很厉害。他们是无敌好爸妈!他们学会了....称赞!*clap clap clap* 所以,走这一条路,没有他们的鼓励,我是没有办法开心地追求的。当然你们留的那些 comments, 也是帮了我许多的!!谢谢你们。muacks!!!

我觉得我们每个人都有一种责任。对于你的家人,朋友,你有老实地给于他们鼓励吗?说一句好听的话,是不用花钱的!

Stop the criticism and judgment!!! Start telling your friends and family that you love them!!! The world will become a better place! Trust me, you will be happier too!

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十一年了,朋友们。 (Monday, January 12, 2009 / 5:30 AM)

十一年了,朋友们。

前天,在赵咏华的演唱会上,听到这首歌,想到你们,我感动地落泪。

*******
我们的故事
by赵咏华

我的朋友 都是我的爱人
曾陪我走过苦涩的青春

从一盏烛光 到无人的海洋
永远说不完是什么
让女孩变女人...
我们的话题 永远在梦里
从爱情到放逐自己
从不实际到最平凡的委屈

谁说我们的故事留在年少
你爱哭 他爱笑
都保存得那么好

曾经我们都活得那么骄傲
你固执 她怕老
谁和谁永远在争吵
谁说女人的友情永远比男人单薄
感谢天 感谢地
让我在生命中看到
最真实的微笑...

********

十一年前,我真的是完全不会打扮,不太有想法。如果我的生命中没有你,我永远都是那个无敌kampung girl。

Dear Danielle Ga-Xu 薇薇,
you were the one who taught me how to tie my hair in that 1001 ways.
you taught me how to be strong, to have my own opinions, how to stand up for myself, how to BE myself.
you were the one who made me so argumentative, which later became a problem between us, coz we quarreled with each other so much. HAHA! That's why I especially like the line "谁和谁永远在争吵". It reminded me of US! hahaha...

十一年前,我不太会哭。如果我的生命中没有你,我就没有今天的感性。

Dear Samantha Liew 素仪,
you were the one who taught me acceptance.
you taught me how to look at everything is different perspective, always showing me interesting perspective.
you taught how to feeeeeel.
you are always the one i want to turn to when i have 心事, coz you'll always give me a perspective. (stress right? heh heh)

十一年前,我不太浪漫。如果我的生命中没有你, 我就不会欣赏漂亮的景色,被它感动。

Dear Kate Lee 慧雯,
you were the one who taught me how to be patient. Some times, when i'm caught in difficult situations, I'll think to myself, "what would huiwen do/say?".
you are forever a romantic even with your pragmatic ways.
you are most supportive of me, giving me endless help.
you balance the "wei wei" in me. haha!

十一年前,我只是个哼哼唱唱的黄毛丫头。如果我的生命中没有你,我就不会意识到我是那么那么那么地喜欢唱歌。

Dear Beverly Liew 慧明,
you were the one who taught me to love singing.
you taught me how to sing, i wanted to sing like you!
you were the one who balanced my fiery temper, taught me how to be coooool, although you'll say "no, im not cool". haha.

十一年前,在中学时期,我被所谓的好朋友深深地伤害,背叛。我变得有点anti-social。那时,我觉得友情是虚幻的。但是,你们让我看到真挚的友情。这一路来,就算受到什么挫折,尽管我还是被一些所谓的好友背叛,我都没有怀疑过,我们的友情是最真的。

如果没有你们,我就一定不是今天的我。讲真的!我是超爱你们的!

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