huuhuu~ post esplanade (Tuesday, February 3, 2009 / 11:29 AM)
I'm so glad!!!!! The Esplanade show was GOOD and BAD!!!! hahaha! I thought my voice was in a pretty good condition. And i think i did 新不了情 pretty well. *shy*
I thought I would stumble all over my words, coz I have never addressed a big audience alone before!! There's always a host! oh my, i was soooo scared. But I think I did not do as badly as I thought. Definitely not great. I get really nervous when I have to talk (by myself). I was soooo tempted to pull Diya on stage or Peifen to come and host! haha. But ok, i survived! huuhuu~ I totally enjoy singing more than hosting! phew~ like what Xing Ang said, I am more myself and more 放 when I'm singing.
BUT!
there was a disaster! I tried to squeeze in my own repertoire - 伤痕. That song meant something to me. That was the 1st time I joined a singing competition during my secondary school days, with a pop song. (err... i used to sing 民歌 when i joined those pri school singing competition) And I got 2nd. bleah. But the band didn't know how to play the song. So oh my, it was such a disaster. They played something, I did not recognise it, and i tried to catch it, and i couldnt. I already said I was gonna sing so I can't just "oh aiyah, let's sing another song". So 硬着头皮, I tried to sing along. But it just doesnt work. My mind was in a chaos "怎么办？怎么办？" I said "好吧！那不如我来清唱吧！" But the band played along! And I still don't know what they were playing. Sigh... I had to stop the song prematurely. And move on to the next song.
That was very embarrassing........
I'm still haunted by that performance. *shivers*
Labels: esplanade, happy, sad, singing
心事谁人知 (Saturday, November 29, 2008 / 10:29 AM)
怎么没有人了解我？
我真的那么难懂吗？
我是一个很喜欢讲话的人。有时候，我都会听腻我自己，讲个不停。
可，我就是爱讲。
我一有烦恼或心事，我就需要马上跟朋友讲。
但是，最近，我觉得我再也不知道我可以对谁倾诉了。。。。。
很难受。。。。。。
生日要到了。过1天。
我很讨厌生日，却又很期待生日。
生日，就好像是一个人的judgement day。
说起来，很无聊，但我很在意生日当天收到几则祝福的SMS，几份礼物。
生日就好像是在考验你的人气。
很多时候，朋友们会忘记我的生日。只是忘记而已，不代表他们不在乎我啊。我自己也常忘记在朋友的生日当天SMS他们。
没什么好在乎的。但，我就是会介意。
我会很期待生日是magical的，一个让我感到很特别的一天。
但，几乎，在记忆中，生日都是平平凡凡，like any other day......
朋友习惯地会问我"what's your plan?" Plan?? Am i supposed to plan my own birthday? Why can't someone plan something magical for me? No one ever knows what I want....
ya la ya la, 是我难搞啦。
So, to save trouble, 今年我要躲起来，不让任何人找到。这样，就算没有人来为我庆祝，那是因为他们找不到我。不是因为他们不在乎hor....
没想到我是那么悲观的人吧。没看过我写那么沮丧的blog post吧。That's the effect my birthday have on me.
bye.
冬眠去了。
Labels: birthday, sad, 心事
freedom (Sunday, September 14, 2008 / 7:17 AM)
I'm a Sagittarian.
As the ninth sign in the zodiac, Sagittarius is associated with the astrological 9th
house, which is associated with natural Sagittarius matters - foreign travel and foreign countries and cultures, religion, the law and higher education, all things which seek to expand one's experience, freedom, journeys.
You know what?
I think that is SOOOO TRUE!!!! Of all, i'm all about the experience. Experiencing different cultures, different jobs, journeys. It's ok to get lost, coz getting lost is part of the journey.
Truest of all sagi's traits.... 我崇拜自由. I can't stand feeling trapped. I can't stand the feeling of not being able to do whatever I like to do whenever, wherever, however. I know life has its rules. I'm ok with rules. I'm not a rebel. But I don't understand why everyone is telling me what time to sleep and wake up. I like to sit on my bed and watch tv series till very late in the night. SO??? I like to eat whenever I'm hungry. That also means that I like supper! SO???
I like... spontaneity. I love feeling... unconstrained by time. If I have a job the next morning, yes, i will not sleep late. I still have a sense of responsibility. I finish my education. I earn my own living every month. I spend money wisely (sometimes I buy on impulse but my self control is pretty good). I don't harm anyone. I think i'm a smart person. So, I really don't like it when people tell me what I shd do or shd not do. Care and concern is fine. But I REALLY hate nagging.
我觉得好压抑。很sian.
Labels: sad, thoughts
i'm sick... (Tuesday, April 15, 2008 / 9:14 PM)
我病得好惨啊
我已经2天没有真正的吃到任何事物了。不管吃什么都马上吐出来或泻出来。可是，肚子还是会饿。胃还是会痛。所以，就喝一些葡萄糖。这2天以来，我就是靠着葡萄糖生活的。好惨啊。。。。
还有，发高烧。
全身无力。我就只能一直睡。希望充足的睡眠和药物能治好我的病吧。
Labels: sad
Not so lucky MrLucky (Tuesday, March 25, 2008 / 1:30 AM)
Not so lucky MrLucky...
It was pouring this afternoon. While I was stopped at a traffic light, *bang* my car got banged at the rear. I turned around but saw nothing. As I looked to my right, a motorcyclist was lying on the floor. I was already quite pissed that my car got knocked, plus it was raining so heavily. I really didnt want to have to get out of my car. But this poor guy, he was lying on the road. So I got out to see if he was ok. As I was getting out, he stood up and said he was ok.
But his motorcycle's front wheel was stuck under my bumper. I had to drive my car forward with the wheel under my right rear bumper. But when I drive forward, it caused my bumper to be bent even more. Wah..... HEART PAIN SIAH.... *kikiakikiakia*
Finally we got his bike out and straightened up. Then I asked him, "so wat happened?" He mumbled while clutching his chest, "dunno, my brake didn't work" Since it's his fault, he should pay for my damage right? But he said in the most 可怜的语气, "miss, 我已经8个月没有工作了。" SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! BIG SIGH!!!!!!! I can't possibly ask for money from this poor guy right?? WALAO!!! WHY SO SUAY!!! Now my poor car is damaged and I have to 自掏腰包 to repair it. I'm NOT RICH too.... but 谁叫我衰！
Today MrLucky is not so lucky. Neither am I.
Labels: sad
change (Tuesday, October 30, 2007 / 3:42 PM)
You've Changed 56% in 10 Years |
You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person.
You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you. |
change... that's an interesting topic, don't you think?
Some people are really afraid of change. But what's there to fear? As Goh Chok Tong (or some other important Singapore politician) said once on some rally, this is an era of change. The only constant is... CHANGE. (ironic huh?) It's all about how fast we can adapt to change now. Like in technology, seriously, we are ridiculously smart people to be able to keep up with the changing IT world. We are constantly upgrading our gadgets, constantly upgrading our computers, updating ourself with the hottest sites (one minute it's friendster, another minute it's facebook). Roads are changing all the time. Buildings. Schools are moving all over the place. The weather is going crazy.
So, my point is... change is inevitable. Have I changed since I joined the showbiz?
I think inevitably I have changed. I have changed my lifestyle, since my working hours are very irregular. It's no longer working from 8-5pm, followed by dinner time when I am free to meet my family and friends. Now I can't meet my friends as regularly, regrettably. I have changed my hair style, I have to look young and not "serious and mature" anymore. I used to have permed hair so that I can project a more mature look at work (heh heh). Inevitably I changed my wardrobe too, from corporate to casual.
But I am still who I am. Just like the test result. I am good at changing with times, but I'll always be the person that I am.
I really hate it when people say I changed just because I joined the entertainment circle. bleah. So cliche. These people just want to fit me into some kind of typical behaviour. Like if you joined showbiz, u must have changed. DUH!!! watever.
I know "someone" is very afraid that I'll change, and keep on writing notes to me "begging" me not to change. She said that I have changed, asked me to go back to the carrie yeo that she knew. This person has upset me again today by messaging me and saying that i'm no longer the Carrie Yeo she knew. Sorry girl, actually I barely know you. How can you know if I have changed? And so what if I did? Have I done anything to harm you? Whereas on the other hand, you are always sms-ing and accusing me of this and that, "you are very fierce", "your eyebags are very heavy", "you have changed" I'm most insulted by the last one. So are you just out to spoil my day??? every now and then, just to poke at me and make sure I'm unhappy? Please stop it. I have had enough already. Maybe you never meant to hurt me but you did. (Pls see previous post for what I think abt ppl who never meant to hurt) I like to keep my days happy and bright and sunny. But your smses always upsets me. So maybe you wanna stop sms-ing me. Thanks!
Labels: sad
bad day... (Wednesday, October 3, 2007 / 3:37 AM)
It's supposed to be a good day.
Everyday is supposed to be a good day (yes, i'm an optimist)
Today, I woke up really late and getting LOADs of rest. But I got a headache, think I overslept. Finally at 1.30, I dragged myself out of bed (with the bloody headache) and went to AMK hub to buy a new phone. Argh, singtel shops have really bad system! Everyone have to queue at the information counter but each customers take a long time and so the queue is very slow moving. My headache was not making the wait anymore pleasant. There was a guy with a broken arm and sprained ankle in front of me, and he had to stand in the queue too. So poor thing.
Anyway, it took me forever to get to the staff and then i realised that they are not selling my phone anymore!!!!! ARGH!!!! This is my dear dear phone that got lost. It was the pink one.
I walked around the whole AMK central area looking for my dear dear phone!!! But none of them had my phone!!! Apparently, the z series models are discontinued. Most of the shops frowned and wonder why do I still want this OLD model??? But i really liked it!!! It was perfect! Well, the camera function is not so perfect but I have a sony camera so I dun need my phone camera to be SUPERB. It's good enough. And I love all the other functions. Thing is, I like clam shell phones, I want 3G and I like Pink.. There are no other models that fits me more than this model. After a long search, I finally found ONE shop which still has stock!!! WHEEE~~!!!! YIPPEE~~~!!! 皇天不负苦心人！It will cost me about $400 but I dun care!!! WHEE~~!!!!
My headache is still bugging me tho. urgh.....
Labels: sad
SUAY!! SUAY!! SUAY!!!! (Friday, September 28, 2007 / 9:55 AM)
URGH!!! I've been quite suay! First my laptop got virus, those trojan hourse viruses. Because of that, I 无缘无故 lost all my files, coz the service centre said the only thing they can do is.... REFORMAT my laptop. Poor Pinka~ (oh yah that's my laptop's name).
Then yesterday, I LOST MY HANDPHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AARRGHH!!!! I was filming at Esplanade, and in between shots, I rushed to the ladies. I also dunno why, but I brought my hp with me. Think I was thinking of replying some smses while I can steal time to do so. But I was stupid enough to leave it in the toilet!! Coz I was in a rush to go back to film mah! The minute I reach the restaurant I was filming at, I remembered! The assistant producer rushed to the toilet to check for me coz I have to continue filming. But she came back saying "dun have" and at 1st I was still like "dun bluff. u r kidding right" hoping that she will pull my hp out of her pocket and laugh. But NO! It was really gone. The PA on set was very nice and went to security and even went to the extent of checking security cameras to see who might have taken my hp. But the STUPID security cameras CANNOT CAPTURE FACES clearly!!!!!! HELO~ if cannot see the faces, then you install security cameras for wat??? oh gosh.....
So, there goes my poor phone....................
boooooohooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It has been miserable without my hp. There are some complications with my contract, so I can only get a replacement sim card on Monday. I'm totally uncontactable in the meantime.
The worst part is, I have to collect my contacts all over again. So dear friends, pls sms or call me after Tuesday (give it a few days in case I cant get my line back on Monday) and let me know your no?? sankyu~
Labels: sad
Boohooo~~!! (Friday, September 21, 2007 / 10:05 AM)
As you know, I have an interview and a show tomorrow right?? But just right at this crucial period, my right eye got infection and is now swollen!!!! WHY?? WHY now??? Whatever religion you believe in, please pray for me ok? I need to be well tomorrow. It's a very important day. I'm going to sleep now. hopefully tomorrow I'll be fine.Labels: sad
